
Nooma42
Active member
Hi everyone,
I'm having some issues and I need some advice. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about four years ago and I'm currently re-medicating after stopping treatment.
I'm currently taking just 200mg per day of Epilim Chrono (with the view of slowly increasing it up to 800mg and then going on anti-depressants). I've been on 20mg for about two weeks.
I've realised that I'm suffering really badly from paranoia. I'm not sure if it is the illness or the drugs. It just seems to be something that has hit me hard in the past week or so.
My partner of 2 years has just started a new job. We have an excellent relationship except that my partner has phobia of sex and physical relations (for which they are going to seek treatment for). She (we are a same sex couple) just started a new job which she's really enjoying and seems very happy. However, I keep thinking that she's having affairs or finding other people attractive. Little things she does (and really ordinary things) make me jump to conclusions, such as offering her new female boss a lift to work.
It really hit me this weeked when we went to see her mum perform in a choir. My partner is really shy and was really nervous about meeting her cousin who she hasn't seen for many, many years. When it was the half time break her cousin went to the bathroom. My partner sat for five minutes and announced she was going to the bathroom too. I instantly thought she was going off to meet her cousin for relations. I realise this is totally stupid but I couldn't help but think it and feel totally jealous and upset. The main thought I have is that "she's having physical relationships with these people because its just me she finds repulsive". I know its stupid.
I know what I'm thinking is totally irrational. I trust my partner with my life. Her dad cheated on her mum so she is appalled by any form of cheating and has promised me she would never hurt me like that. I believe her totally. However, this past week there have been these thoughts creeping into my mind.
I dont know whether to go and see my psychiatrist straight away or just keep taking the drugs in the hope that a higher dose will make it settle.
Thanks
I'm having some issues and I need some advice. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about four years ago and I'm currently re-medicating after stopping treatment.
I'm currently taking just 200mg per day of Epilim Chrono (with the view of slowly increasing it up to 800mg and then going on anti-depressants). I've been on 20mg for about two weeks.
I've realised that I'm suffering really badly from paranoia. I'm not sure if it is the illness or the drugs. It just seems to be something that has hit me hard in the past week or so.
My partner of 2 years has just started a new job. We have an excellent relationship except that my partner has phobia of sex and physical relations (for which they are going to seek treatment for). She (we are a same sex couple) just started a new job which she's really enjoying and seems very happy. However, I keep thinking that she's having affairs or finding other people attractive. Little things she does (and really ordinary things) make me jump to conclusions, such as offering her new female boss a lift to work.
It really hit me this weeked when we went to see her mum perform in a choir. My partner is really shy and was really nervous about meeting her cousin who she hasn't seen for many, many years. When it was the half time break her cousin went to the bathroom. My partner sat for five minutes and announced she was going to the bathroom too. I instantly thought she was going off to meet her cousin for relations. I realise this is totally stupid but I couldn't help but think it and feel totally jealous and upset. The main thought I have is that "she's having physical relationships with these people because its just me she finds repulsive". I know its stupid.
I know what I'm thinking is totally irrational. I trust my partner with my life. Her dad cheated on her mum so she is appalled by any form of cheating and has promised me she would never hurt me like that. I believe her totally. However, this past week there have been these thoughts creeping into my mind.
I dont know whether to go and see my psychiatrist straight away or just keep taking the drugs in the hope that a higher dose will make it settle.
Thanks
