- May 18, 2020
- New York
I’m a lonely middle aged female who’s recently lost a soulmate through suicide. He was my college. I feel very lost without him. I’ve been suffering from loneliness for a long time. I feel like a total failure in life I feel very empty and overwhelmed. I never experience a marriage or have any children. I don’t feel normal. I been mistreated most of my life, especially by my family. I’ve been abused, bullied backstabbed, ridiculed and rejected. I’m sick of people talking about their normal everyday life while drowning in my misery! And now I’m overwhelmed with grief. I feel like I don’t want to be in this world anymore because I feel like people don’t care! I always have suicidal thoughts and they are getting stronger. My recent therapist wasn’t much help, I feel she’s a crock of I don’t want to say it on the forum. I’M A NOBODY A ROBOT! A THING! I’ll keep praying that I’ll die in my sleep.