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Overactive voices and delusions. Please help

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PsychologyBrain

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Hello

Im currently struggling to see sense with the voices. Im slowly losing my sense of reality and believing either im not real ( which i put down to.my derealization) or my family aren't actually real. This is new territory to.me and im trying desperately to fight back and not give in to the delusions and the voices telling me they are real. However i spent hours today believing i was turning invisible. Now im more able to think rationally im scared its going to come back.
I take aripiprazole 10mg and am under the mental health team. But its out of hours and honestly i am just so scared im losing my mind.
 
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Hi there @PsychologyBrain, I'm on 10mg Aripiprazole and 4mg Risperidone and currently under an Early Intervention Team for psychosis.

Thanks to the medication I no longer suffer from psychosis (three years without an episode) but still have a persisting voice in my head that isn't my own.

During my psychosis I had a delusion where I thought a family member wasn't real and had somehow been replaced by something/someone else. Now I believe I'm real, everyone else is real and that my voice is real, in fact I have some very strong beliefs about who and what voices are.

I believe it's a very common delusion what we're going through and many members here will probably be able to relate to you on this one. My voice even pretended to be people out in the real world talking to me telepathically and had me waiting outside my house for a car to pick me up that may or may not have been invisible.

Apart from saying it's real has your voice given any explanation as to what it is? They rarely tell the truth but I believe I figured mine out.
 
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Hello

Thank you for replying to me :)

Ive have tried to argue back with the voices (mine are all variations of myself but separate from me. So its like i dont know what is me and what isnt sometimes).

They didnt give a reason. It was more me trying to rationalise that i am real because my mother was responding to me. And then the voices flipped and said she was the one who wasnt real and was trying to trick me into being unwell. It doesn't really make any sense but at the time it felt so real.

Im so glad that you haven't had an episode. It also makes me feel like ill be ok and can beat it.
 
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I gave up trying to argue with my voice when I started taking medication three years ago, I just ignore him completely and he hates every minute of it. You can (or should be able to) win arguments but my voice is insane so nothing I say makes any difference.

My definition of insanity is repeating the same behaviour over and over expecting different results, and my voice certainly fits that description.

He's either ranting, whining, begging about being ignored and being on medication or singing, anything to keep being verbal all day long.
But thanks to the medication he's around 95% quieter than he was before so I can easily ignore him. He wants to be spoken to again and to come off medication but if he's not willing to work with me then he's going to remain like this for a very long time, all I ask of him is for a little silence each day mostly when I'm out and about doing things but he's having none of it and claims his talking is compulsive.

I believe he's a physical part of me and have done for many years now, it's like we're two people sharing the same body and a book I've recently read called 'the Daemon - a guide to your extraordinary secret self' by Anthony Peake who calls their kind the Daemon and our kind the Eidolon claims that scientists who did research back in the 1960's on people with epilepsy and have undergone split-brain surgery discovered that we have two distinctive and independent minds per body. They say we the Eidolon occupy the left hemisphere of the brain and the Daemon occupies the right hemisphere and they put just the left hemisphere of a subject to sleep and the right hemisphere took control and they actually spoke to a Daemon face to face.

These Daemons seem to have the ability to put thoughts, ideas and images into our mind and can give us impulses to do things, it's their way of controlling what we do in life and that is normal for a Daemon, most people don't even realise they exist until they start speaking to us directly like mine and yours and even then they claim to be things that they're not in order to confuse us and keep power over us.

Over the years mine has pretended to be God, the Devil, Archangels, people talking to me telepathically like friends, family and people I've met online, my Higher Self or a spirit guide (when I studied spirituality) and many other things until I made up my own mind based on the things he could do to me and when I did confront him with my suspicions he eventually came clean and consequently lost his power over me.

I could go on even more about the things they can do that make me believe the things I do like his ability to read minds, leave the body which spiritualists call astral projection or remote viewing (I call it biological quantum entanglement) and an ability to influence dreams but this post is getting long enough already.
 
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I have spent the last 13 years harming my face and screaming and shouting i didn't have any support for 10 years. They say its the townspeople and want to kill me i get very worried and spend a lot of my worrying in my mind. I wonder if anyone harms there face like i do.
 
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PsychologyBrain

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Hello Georgina.

Do you have support now?
After i posted the original post i became convinced my mum was trying to kill me as the voices told me she was not my mum but something else. I ended up calling the crisis team who have since engaged with me. I do not tend to harm my face but i will harm myself to check if i am real.
 
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Please don't go harming face over that post you are real I promise so don't go letting things get to you. Hope my post didn't cause you any harm.
 
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Do not worry you did not cause any harm. It is nice just talking to someone. Thank you :)
I hope you are okay too :)
 
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