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no_energy
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For many years I didn’t realise that I had depression. I didn’t even want to say the name as it felt like a terminally ill disease. Here I am talking about it. I’ve never been to a doctor or took any drugs yet but I’ve reached to a tipping point in my life. I am 33 year old good looking male that haven’t been in a relationship for 8 years, hasn’t had sex for 3 and practically living on my own as for various different reasons I “fell out” with my closest friends (during the last 10 years).
I know I am self diagnosed depressed but it doesn’t take a genius to find that: I’ve been going in cycles of low mood, to severe episodes (crying with no reason, overeating until I feel pain, feeling worthless, sighing all the time, watch TV all day, avoiding social interactions, having chest pains, feeling that my life is pointless and wasted etc – the list I have is endless).
The reason I haven’t been to a GP yet is that I cannot see myself going to a roving GP (we don’t have the same doctors in our surgery) to talk about depression. The thought of talking to someone who is not qualified but has the power to suggest puts me off. I wish I could go straight to a psychiatrist without having to pay a fortune (since I am trying to pay my debt) and get an expert opinion. In addition, I don’t like the idea of the GP taking notes that then can be shown to any prospective future employer.
I’ve tried many different things on my own with a degree of success in some cases.St Johns wart (the only drug over the counter), meditation, reiki, yoga. They worked for a while but my biggest problem was sticking with their routine. I’ve run three marathons in two years and I was in a top fit state. Depression took hold of me and now I am borderline obese with no friends.
I don’t know what next. I want to do one step. One tiny step that will give me the confidence. Something. Anything...
I know I am self diagnosed depressed but it doesn’t take a genius to find that: I’ve been going in cycles of low mood, to severe episodes (crying with no reason, overeating until I feel pain, feeling worthless, sighing all the time, watch TV all day, avoiding social interactions, having chest pains, feeling that my life is pointless and wasted etc – the list I have is endless).
The reason I haven’t been to a GP yet is that I cannot see myself going to a roving GP (we don’t have the same doctors in our surgery) to talk about depression. The thought of talking to someone who is not qualified but has the power to suggest puts me off. I wish I could go straight to a psychiatrist without having to pay a fortune (since I am trying to pay my debt) and get an expert opinion. In addition, I don’t like the idea of the GP taking notes that then can be shown to any prospective future employer.
I’ve tried many different things on my own with a degree of success in some cases.St Johns wart (the only drug over the counter), meditation, reiki, yoga. They worked for a while but my biggest problem was sticking with their routine. I’ve run three marathons in two years and I was in a top fit state. Depression took hold of me and now I am borderline obese with no friends.
I don’t know what next. I want to do one step. One tiny step that will give me the confidence. Something. Anything...