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JoeCurr

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I'm not a psychopath, there's no such thing. You might argue, in your experience, have encountered some pretty messed up people. I'm not a psychopath, I'm just mostly fearless. I have the courage to look at an MS-13 thug, at their forehead tattoo that says "Rape. Murder. Conquer." and say, "cute little tattoo you got there, is it real? Or the peel of kind you get from a cereal box?" You might think "that's crazy! You say that to the face of a gang leader, he'll do worse than kill you." You're right. He will. I prefer not to be fed my own intestines. I like them where they are. After being excommunicated from the one woman I love because I mention to her I have schizoaffective disorder, being fed my own intestines is only 10% worse.
 
calypso

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:welcome: To the forum. Stigma is awful and that is what you suffered with that woman. No you are not a psychopath, you are a hurt human being who has been dealt a body blow by her.

HOw are you coping now? Take care
 
Hopefuloldie

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Welcome. I understand the fearlessness thing.... Don't get overwhelmed by the label - it means very little in the end, and as such, I don't usally share my diagnosis with other people x
 
JoeCurr

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I'd like to hold this one woman's hand. I'd like to make feeble attempts to impress her. Maybe my doctor made a mistake. They don't get every diagnosis right, do they? Maybe I just have depression or something. When most people think of grief, they think of a loved one whose died. I have a more profound grief. I'm 30 years old. Where's my wife? Where are my kids? Where's my house? When you put my life now, as it is, and contrast it to the life that I have been robbed of, all of a sudden my pills don't go down so easy.
 
JoeCurr

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Grief is a sense of loss. It's is made all the more difficult when what what you've lost is attainable, when the state of attainability is unknown. A dog loses a bone, it's not so hard for it to get over it, unless it's just out of reach. Then it's a torment.
 
DiAnna

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Very good analogy; you are right mental illnesses rob people of the “good” life :sorry:
 
embleton

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Some good thoughts, I'm living with schizoaffective disorder and have a loving wife, and not everyone thinks the same about those living with mental illnesses.

I always think anyone who likes to label and place people in a box they don't understand then it's their loss when they lose friends or deeper relationships.
 
JoeCurr

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Some good thoughts, I'm living with schizoaffective disorder and have a loving wife, and not everyone thinks the same about those living with mental illnesses.

I always think anyone who likes to label and place people in a box they don't understand then it's their loss when they lose friends or deeper relationships.
Congradulations on your relationship. I'm not so fortunate. There's someone I love. Me. The way I express that love is to hold this one woman's hand and listen to her voice and witty banter. Excommunication isn't just her loss, it's mine too. I feel that loss every day.
 
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