Old Face - New diagnosis

[Lolli_Liability]

Hello my lovelies , oh how i have missed you.

I was previously on here as Lolli_Liability however i cannot access that account anymore so i have had to create a new account . Ive been through some real darkness recently , i know if you know me youll know ive been here before. Diagnosed at a young age with Bipolar Disorder . After having Bipolar that responded to nothing a pychiatrist has recently diagnosed me with Emotionally Unstable Personality Dissorder/ BPD - still unsure wether im living with both or just BPD its still in discussion . I need to reach out again im so lonely and struggling with life , nothing new ey , but that doesnt make it any easier to live with . Reach out to me guys and talk to me . Looking to speak to people who i have spoken to before and/or who are knew but know the struggles of BPD .. (Calypso if you see this id love to speak to you , miss you momma) Im so lonely in my challenges.

I am now 26 years old , i have historically been admitted into a psychiatric hospital . I have been treated as an inpatient for BPD back in 2018 at the age of 23. i first joined as a member in 2019 with a diagnosis of bipolar disorder and annorexia .

I continously cause harm to myself and i always have . I am now on the following : Fluoxetine , pregabalin, amytriptaline , aripiprazole to try and improve the symptoms of bpd and i am engaging in DBT which is exhausting but i continue to engage and push through. i am currently off work sick owing to my mental health and i am trying to work through these suicidal thoughts, i just dont want to be here . I dont understand bpd although i am trying to come to terms with my new diagnosis .

Is there anyone out there who would like an online penpal ? , i can also offer support and friendship to others.
All my love , Lolli_Liability always x

 

[midnightphoenix]

Welcome back, another eupd/bpd'er here

 

[NWiddi]

Welcome back Lolli.

I'm sorry to hear about your suicidal thoughts, in case you begin to struggle with them I'll post our safety message for you...

It may help to have a look at these two pages on the forum: Suicidal Crisis and Mental Health Forum - Getting Help about what to do if you're feeling suicidal, or if you need emergency help. I hope you can use the forum for support during this difficult time.

If you’re thinking about suicide and are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number (i.e. in the UK call 999, in the USA or Canada call 911, in Australia call 000 and in New Zealand call 111) or call the international emergency number of 112.

If you have been affected by the contents of this thread and would like to speak to someone about your feelings you can call one of the following helplines:

In the UK and Ireland, the Samaritans can be contacted on 116 123.
In the US, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255.
In Canada, the Suicide Prevention Service on 1.833.456.4566.
In Australia, the crisis support service Lifeline is on 13 11 14.
In New Zealand, the Need to Talk service is on 1737 or 080017371737.
Other international helplines can be found at www.befrienders.org.

 

[Lolli_Liability]

Welcome back, another eupd/bpd'er here

hey hun nice to find someone with the same diagnosis how are you ?x

 

[midnightphoenix]

hey hun nice to find someone with the same diagnosis how are you ?x

wiped out at the moment cause i had work this morning then therapy a hour later

how are you?

 

[Lolli_Liability]

wiped out at the moment cause i had work this morning then therapy a hour later

how are you?

Im similar feeling very low today as i have been to a therapy session this morning and like you say that is just draining . Are you doing DBT hun .xx

 

[midnightphoenix]

Im similar feeling very low today as i have been to a therapy session this morning and like you say that is just draining . Are you doing DBT hun .xx

the therapy is through work so they just concentrate on things like breathing techniques and stuff like that but its still draining

 

[Lolli_Liability]

the therapy is through work so they just concentrate on things like breathing techniques and stuff like that but its still draining

yes of course it is never play it down x

 

[midnightphoenix]

yes of course it is never play it down x

work dont know about my bpd cause i dont want them to know, mine is the quiet type

 

[Lolli_Liability]

As is mine and I told work about it but at first I wasn't willing too. How do you cope with work xx

 

[MYTIMEHASCOME]

Welcome “one of us! one of us!”

 

[Lone_wanderer]

Hey Lolli, I remember you, I was Jericho when you used to post before. Welcome back. .

 

[Lolli_Liability]

Hey Lolli, I remember you, I was Jericho when you used to post before. Welcome back. .

I really do remebeber you lovely hey there x

 

[Chance87]

Hi! I have bpd too. Would love to have someone to talk to about things!