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mezz1962
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Ok here's the problem in a quick sentence
I went to see a few physch's in my life and I was diagnosed with Adult ADD, I am Bi-Polar and I suffer from anxiety as well as few other things like I sweat to death and it feels like my body temp goes up 20 degrees when I have to talk to someone that I am unfamiliar with. (There is a name for it but I forgot)
The long version
I have seen Dr's and I have been on Medications like:
Busbar as well as a few other med's for the anxiety all of them I could not work when I took them and all of them made me lethargic.
Straterra was the latest med and that was fine in a low dose under 20mg it did stop all the thoughts running through my head but started causeing painful urination in higher doses. I did sleep more than the normal 3-4 hours of sleep that I have been getting for the past 5 years and normally those hours are filled with dreams and I never really feel like I slept. But normally I try to control everything myself without meds because I do have a fear of taking med's that will in essence change me from the person I am.
I am a 46 year old man, white 6 foot 2 - 210lbs in great shape. physically I have no problems at all
I was beaten everyday as a child. The good thing that came out of it was I would never ever hit my children or wife. Overall I had a normal childhood I have no issues at all I see my parents all the time and I am very very grounded. I do have a 150 IQ, I wrote a few novels and run a successful business.
Without Percocet or any medication
I curse almost all the time
I am quick to anger
I will go through fits of Rage to the point where I have to punch a hole in the wall
I will gladly help out friends and neighbors and I will be there whenever some one needs me
I am very very loyal to people
I am a recluse for the most part I work from home and given the choice I would rather never see another soul in my life
I do have sex on a regular basis but I can go without it because it is not really important to me
I can not keep thoughts straight in my head
I relate to kids better than I do adults I have a few employees we get along fine but I really would rather be alone than be working with them
My dog is my best friend in fact she's basically my only friend. I really don't like people all that much
I am an information sponge, I watch TV News, history channel, discovery channel always wanting to learn more and more
I wrote a 600 page novel in 5 days (I did not sleep because it was like seeing a movie in my head and I was writing what I was seeing and it would not stop. The book was published. I also wrote the following 2 books to complete the sequel but those 2 books remain on my computer I have no desire to proceed getting them published
I will work for any amount of hours to get a project finish never resting, never sleeping but with every project I get it 99% done and never finish it nor even care about it once the project is finished in my head its done to me
I will cut my lawn, paint my house or do whatever in the middle of the night or when ever I think I have to do something no matter what time of day, season or circumstance I must do it right then and there
Now for the problem
Last year I ruptured a disk in my back and they prescribed percocet. I currently take 5mg twice a day so it is very low dosage.
Almost instantly I was cured. I did not even realize it. My wife and family noticed first. The first sign was I was no longer cursing or getting angry. My wife saw it because I started being nice to her all the time and complimenting here about her looks or helping her out with housework. But in all the above cases everything was fixed after I starting taking the percocet to help with the pain I was suffering.
I don't feel high nor do I feel different other than normal. The only thing I can not do is sleep other than that. My rage is gone, I am no longer quick to anger in fact it is the opposite. Example my old business partner stole $75,000 from the account and I had to start the business all over under normal circumstances I would have killed him and I do mean rip his throat out blood and guts everywhere kill him. But I did not even get mad
My company receives 100 emails a day before percocet I would answer 5 or 6 be soaking wet from sweat and I could not answer anymore without taking a break. I would have to struggle to get through 20-30 of them and most of the time delete the rest of them. On percocet no matter how many I get I sit and just answer them all no sweating, stopping no nothing just sit there an answer them all
On Percocet I follow things to completion, I am not so off kilter meeting people and I will actually have fun. I recently went to a family outing normally I would leave in 1 hour my family is used to it and they accept who I am but this time I stayed the whole 4 hours of the party and actually had a good time.
I can tell my wife my feeling instead of never showing her how I truly feel about her. Without percocet I am a grumpy old man and I would rather call you names and hurt your feelings than make you feel happy.On percocet I am happy to hug her, kiss her and tell her I love her and how beautiful she looks.
Percocet does not effect my thinking in any way. I can still problem solve, Drive my car, take care of all the problems that occurred daily with running a million dollar business. So I am in no way impaired or as I have seen on other site a feeling of being high. I am not overly happy I feel like I am a normal person. I still get sad and still get upset but it is now in situations that are called for this emotion what I am not doing is going overboard with rage.
So the problem is what is in percocet that has such a profound effect and seemingly cures my physiological problems with no side effects and why is this drug so illegal that I cannot obtain it? Or a doctor who spends years learning to cure people's ills are so stupid not to see that this is MY miricle drug?
I get 60 pills per month and usually run out the last few days. have no side effect I don't sweat, I don't lose my appetite, I sleep regular and except for my anger returning, and my grumpiness rearing it's ugly head I have no other effects. I am keenly aware of addition since my mother was an acholic and I do not even drink except at a social occasion. The only effect not being on Percocet does is Basically me into my old self and every person ( family, wife, my employees know the minute my percocet wears off because it is like Jekel and Hyde)
I am willing to put myself in a study but I think this drug can help people like myself in small doses. I really can't understand why when I try different psychologist they try giving me medication that has so many adverse effects when this drug seemingly does what they want for me without any side effects that I can see. Recently I had a full medical work up and blood, urine, blood pressure was completely normal
So any advice? I will work with anyone that is actually willing to help me find what is wrong with me and hopefully I can provide someone with the most complex subject they will ever find. I have been described as the smartest crazy person who they would ever meet but people come to me for advice because they trust me even though I am nuts
I went to see a few physch's in my life and I was diagnosed with Adult ADD, I am Bi-Polar and I suffer from anxiety as well as few other things like I sweat to death and it feels like my body temp goes up 20 degrees when I have to talk to someone that I am unfamiliar with. (There is a name for it but I forgot)
The long version
I have seen Dr's and I have been on Medications like:
Busbar as well as a few other med's for the anxiety all of them I could not work when I took them and all of them made me lethargic.
Straterra was the latest med and that was fine in a low dose under 20mg it did stop all the thoughts running through my head but started causeing painful urination in higher doses. I did sleep more than the normal 3-4 hours of sleep that I have been getting for the past 5 years and normally those hours are filled with dreams and I never really feel like I slept. But normally I try to control everything myself without meds because I do have a fear of taking med's that will in essence change me from the person I am.
I am a 46 year old man, white 6 foot 2 - 210lbs in great shape. physically I have no problems at all
I was beaten everyday as a child. The good thing that came out of it was I would never ever hit my children or wife. Overall I had a normal childhood I have no issues at all I see my parents all the time and I am very very grounded. I do have a 150 IQ, I wrote a few novels and run a successful business.
Without Percocet or any medication
I curse almost all the time
I am quick to anger
I will go through fits of Rage to the point where I have to punch a hole in the wall
I will gladly help out friends and neighbors and I will be there whenever some one needs me
I am very very loyal to people
I am a recluse for the most part I work from home and given the choice I would rather never see another soul in my life
I do have sex on a regular basis but I can go without it because it is not really important to me
I can not keep thoughts straight in my head
I relate to kids better than I do adults I have a few employees we get along fine but I really would rather be alone than be working with them
My dog is my best friend in fact she's basically my only friend. I really don't like people all that much
I am an information sponge, I watch TV News, history channel, discovery channel always wanting to learn more and more
I wrote a 600 page novel in 5 days (I did not sleep because it was like seeing a movie in my head and I was writing what I was seeing and it would not stop. The book was published. I also wrote the following 2 books to complete the sequel but those 2 books remain on my computer I have no desire to proceed getting them published
I will work for any amount of hours to get a project finish never resting, never sleeping but with every project I get it 99% done and never finish it nor even care about it once the project is finished in my head its done to me
I will cut my lawn, paint my house or do whatever in the middle of the night or when ever I think I have to do something no matter what time of day, season or circumstance I must do it right then and there
Now for the problem
Last year I ruptured a disk in my back and they prescribed percocet. I currently take 5mg twice a day so it is very low dosage.
Almost instantly I was cured. I did not even realize it. My wife and family noticed first. The first sign was I was no longer cursing or getting angry. My wife saw it because I started being nice to her all the time and complimenting here about her looks or helping her out with housework. But in all the above cases everything was fixed after I starting taking the percocet to help with the pain I was suffering.
I don't feel high nor do I feel different other than normal. The only thing I can not do is sleep other than that. My rage is gone, I am no longer quick to anger in fact it is the opposite. Example my old business partner stole $75,000 from the account and I had to start the business all over under normal circumstances I would have killed him and I do mean rip his throat out blood and guts everywhere kill him. But I did not even get mad
My company receives 100 emails a day before percocet I would answer 5 or 6 be soaking wet from sweat and I could not answer anymore without taking a break. I would have to struggle to get through 20-30 of them and most of the time delete the rest of them. On percocet no matter how many I get I sit and just answer them all no sweating, stopping no nothing just sit there an answer them all
On Percocet I follow things to completion, I am not so off kilter meeting people and I will actually have fun. I recently went to a family outing normally I would leave in 1 hour my family is used to it and they accept who I am but this time I stayed the whole 4 hours of the party and actually had a good time.
I can tell my wife my feeling instead of never showing her how I truly feel about her. Without percocet I am a grumpy old man and I would rather call you names and hurt your feelings than make you feel happy.On percocet I am happy to hug her, kiss her and tell her I love her and how beautiful she looks.
Percocet does not effect my thinking in any way. I can still problem solve, Drive my car, take care of all the problems that occurred daily with running a million dollar business. So I am in no way impaired or as I have seen on other site a feeling of being high. I am not overly happy I feel like I am a normal person. I still get sad and still get upset but it is now in situations that are called for this emotion what I am not doing is going overboard with rage.
So the problem is what is in percocet that has such a profound effect and seemingly cures my physiological problems with no side effects and why is this drug so illegal that I cannot obtain it? Or a doctor who spends years learning to cure people's ills are so stupid not to see that this is MY miricle drug?
I get 60 pills per month and usually run out the last few days. have no side effect I don't sweat, I don't lose my appetite, I sleep regular and except for my anger returning, and my grumpiness rearing it's ugly head I have no other effects. I am keenly aware of addition since my mother was an acholic and I do not even drink except at a social occasion. The only effect not being on Percocet does is Basically me into my old self and every person ( family, wife, my employees know the minute my percocet wears off because it is like Jekel and Hyde)
I am willing to put myself in a study but I think this drug can help people like myself in small doses. I really can't understand why when I try different psychologist they try giving me medication that has so many adverse effects when this drug seemingly does what they want for me without any side effects that I can see. Recently I had a full medical work up and blood, urine, blood pressure was completely normal
So any advice? I will work with anyone that is actually willing to help me find what is wrong with me and hopefully I can provide someone with the most complex subject they will ever find. I have been described as the smartest crazy person who they would ever meet but people come to me for advice because they trust me even though I am nuts