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RubyAnn
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- Jul 6, 2008
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I am soo scared and trapped at the moment... I live with my grandparents and my mum... I can't afford to move out... and I honestly think that if I stay here much longer they only way I'll ever get out of this house is in a wooden box.......
Everytime I close my eyes I have horrible thoughts, not just about me, but about my nan too.... I hate her..... and I know this is going to sound nasty but I just want her dead... because I am never going to be able to live my live while she is still around....
she makes me feel like shit about myself, when she talks to me like a piece of shit i just want to cut myself (and I have) and I can't take it anymore......
My stomach feels like it's got a volcano inside... I feel ready to blow at any minute... and my chest is starting to feel tight again because I am getting so wound up and anxious...
I am thinking of taking myself up the hospital again... so I can talk to someone....



Everytime I close my eyes I have horrible thoughts, not just about me, but about my nan too.... I hate her..... and I know this is going to sound nasty but I just want her dead... because I am never going to be able to live my live while she is still around....
she makes me feel like shit about myself, when she talks to me like a piece of shit i just want to cut myself (and I have) and I can't take it anymore......
My stomach feels like it's got a volcano inside... I feel ready to blow at any minute... and my chest is starting to feel tight again because I am getting so wound up and anxious...
I am thinking of taking myself up the hospital again... so I can talk to someone....


