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May 18, 2019
The Netherlands

When I was a kid, I already had OCD traits. I never let them show because I just thought I was weird. Later on in life, I did some research on the internet. I really found myself in what people wrote about OCD. I'm pretty sure I have OCD and it affects my life in a really bad way. I want to tell my parents but I don't know how.

Some things I do is for example:
1. I need things to be even. I NEED to touch everything with both hands so they feel exactly the same. Often I'm to late for stuff because sometimes this takes a very long time.
2. I have horrible thoughts. I'm very scared that I'll get a horrible sickness. I'm also scared that my family/loved ones get a bad illness. I'm constantly worrying about death
3. I have lots more bad rituals but there are to many to write down. All I know is that it's horrible. I just HAVE to do it for some reason. My earliest memories have OCD in them. Even at the age of 5 I remember having rituals. My question to those of you who have OCD is: Does this sounf familiar? Or is this not OCD?


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May 5, 2019

I'm sorry to hear that you have been suffering for such a long time, and you're not wrong to think that you may have OCD. My cousin used to suffer with it, and would have rituals surrounding food, if she touched raw chicken to prepare or cook it, she would HAVE to then wash her hands approximately 15 times, no more and no less. She went to therapy for it, and they discovered the cause and helped her get through it, and now she no longer suffers as badly!

I think getting a diagnosis would be a good step and possible talking to a therapist so they can help you to discover any problems and get you through it :)

Wishing you the best x