Hi Magenta Pink!
OCD thoughts manifest in so many ways, and yours can feel incredibly frightening. You believe that if you think something bad or something against the Bible, you're going to go to hell. But remember, it's a thought -- not an action. Actions makes sinners, not thoughts.
Besides, what do you think constitutes a life that leads to hell? Murder and rape for me are the two worst crimes anyone can commit and even some people that have done these crimes have sought forgiveness to live a better life. It all depends on the person. Will these people simply go to hell because of the crimes they've committed? Or do they deserve a second chance for what they tried to do to change their lives? Who's to say?
Everybody makes mistakes, everybody sins in some way, whether through lying or manipulation. It happens. But there's no list of how many wrongs you can commit before you're deemed unworthy. You just have to live the best life possible, for you and others. You'll slip up on occasion, but learning to accept those slip-ups (and not to damn yourself for them) will help you bounce back quicker.
Be okay with living your life the way you want, Magenta Pink. Otherwise, you'll try living a godly life only to find it's not a life worth living.