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OCD symptoms? Not sure what's happening to my brain

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eds0926

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So a few months ago I was driving in my car on the highway at night with no other cars around when all the sudden I had the urge to swerve my car. I acted on this urge and swerved quickly into the other lane as if I was trying to flip or crash my car. Afterwords a huge wave of anxiety(as if I was having a panic attack) came over me and I felt an even stronger urge to do it again. I now get pretty bad anxiety when driving on the highway, especially at night and when no other cars are around.
Since that night a few months again I have developed this weird urge to try to break things. I know, this sounds really bizarre and I don't understand what is causing this to happen. I don't necessarily want to break things or cause damage it's just the possibility that I could maybe do it that gives me anxiety. For example I went through a period where I thought I was capable of breaking my finger or nose if I put enough pressure on it or break a glass if I squeezed it hard enough. Really weird stuff I know.
I also want to state that I am not suicidal or depressed as I live a healthy lifestyle(diet, exercise, sleep) and have a decent social life too. I just don't understand what is going on with my brain. This is also the first time I reached out or talked to anyone about this so I haven't tried any kind of therapy. Any help or advice would be much appreciated.
 
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Hey eds. Hope your finding this forum and people here helpfull. I read your tread and I get that feeling ...but what makes you think you have OCD ? Sounds more like BPD with trying out how far you can push before you actually crash, break your finger etc . Have you had any recent traumatic experiences or maybe something in the past . However its hard to detect BPD as you look and act fine at times . More than fine ... you feel like on top of your game and like you can do anything ...obvs less pleasant when you hit the low of BDT . However it took me aswell ages to be diagnoosed as I had other things going on and never took time for treatment. Just meds wount just do tho. I do hope you have found the help and support here you needed. And the best way to know is to go to doctors but sometimes it takes a while and even at this point while i started with theraphy came out that I have PTSD . The sings were all there but i thought its my anxiety disorder and BPD mixed up and consendrated on them....iv done so many tests and met so many doctors and finally in the theraphy and my theraphist is great. She figures all out based on things I havent said or how I react ...obvs its long time etc. So I would advise maybe go to gp and get yourself reffered or self reffer to steps to wellbeing and see what they say . I hope you get the aswers you need .
 
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I'mafraid we cannot diagnose another person on a forum. I would ask for some basic counselling to get past this episode personally.
 
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Thanks for the reply! No past events come to mind that would have triggered this, maybe something subconsciously. What made me think it was OCD originally is that I would act compulsively on thoughts I would have that could potentially hurt myself or something else.
 
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Hi Calypso, I agree that is probably the best route to go. I was more so looking for other perspectives on what may be happening here or if others have experienced anything like this.
 
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I would argue that we rarely "suddenly" get OCD and it usually leaks into all aspects of our lives. Compulsively acting on thoughts could be any number of things going on here. I think you should ask for some professional help, maybe a private therapist if you can afford one, or ask the doc for an appointment for a short course of therapy. Private is better if you can manage it - about £40 and hour at most. Most of us can cut back on some things to be able to afford it but obviously I don't know your circumstances for this.
 
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Ohh ok. Well im almost sure whatever you think is going on with ur behaviour atm its noting to do with OCD. But yea its hard to tell based on what you said etc whats causing you to think and act this way atm. I hope you get some answers , but best way is to go to doctors and tell her/him your concerns . Yes you can go privatly and pay probs get better attention and service . But you can ask your doctor or self reffer yourself to steps-to-wellbeing for free and they are great and flexible . For starters maybe ? I hope you find out more about it and get the support and help you need. Hugs
 
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I'm so sorry, just know you are not alone. I would say it sounds anxiety related. I would talk with your doctor and let them know and see about maybe some medication. Do you have a SO or someone close you can share these feelings with? That alone may help.
 
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1. People that have OCD don't act on thoughts. 2. If one acts on thoughts refer to 1.
 
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