I have been struggling with ocd for as long as i can remember. Lately I have been extremely stressed out with how i’ve been feeling. A few nights ago I was just sitting and thinking out of the blue.. “What if I was gay?” now I have always been attracted to women, i’ve had girlfriends all my life and my respect for women is extremely high, i treat them better than i treat myself! I’ve never had a sexual thought about a male ever, and still haven’t to this day. Now every time I talk to my Girlfriend I get this guilty/confused feeling by asking myself “ am I supposed to feel a certain way about her?” and “ why do I feel this way of I love women?” The thing that is really getting to me is that this is stressing me out so much that I have become emotionally numb and confused to the point of guilt in the way I think emotionally and sexually. I don’t have fantasies about men so I really don’t think it can be HOCD but if anyone can tell me what is going on that would be life changing!