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OCD/being aware of mind and being alive

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Radout79

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Does anyone ever start to dig deep in their mind and have the realization that they're alive? Like this is all happening, this is all real. I'm really looking at a wall, driving a car, ect
Hard to explain but I feel someone knows what I mean. It gives me anxiety attacks. You think this is really my mind and if you really think about it it's hard to wrap you're mind around the fact that it's real?
Please say someone understands?
 
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Absolutely. I think you are hyperfocusing on your self awareness. We are all self aware and have the capacity to step back and contemplate our existance. I used to get anxiety from these sorts of thoughts. You do exist and are real and it's both amazing and frightening.

Sometimes I am amazed that the universe exists and sometimes I worry that the universe does not exist but that my thoughts are fading echos and everything has ended, forever
 
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So it's normal in the sense? I have OCD so I'm consumed by it


Absolutely. I think you are hyperfocusing on your self awareness. We are all self aware and have the capacity to step back and contemplate our existance. I used to get anxiety from these sorts of thoughts. You do exist and are real and it's both amazing and frightening.

Sometimes I am amazed that the universe exists and sometimes I worry that the universe does not exist but that my thoughts are fading echos and everything has ended, forever
 
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Does anyone ever start to dig deep in their mind and have the realization that they're alive? Like this is all happening, this is all real. I'm really looking at a wall, driving a car, ect
Hard to explain but I feel someone knows what I mean. It gives me anxiety attacks. You think this is really my mind and if you really think about it it's hard to wrap you're mind around the fact that it's real?
Please say someone understands?
Yep. And I would say the older I get, the more this occurs. It's most of the time when I'm not in people's company, but also very much so when I'm in unfamiliar company.

The above poster mentioned 'self-awareness', and this is what it is, IMO.
 
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So it's normal? And need to stop allowing my OCD to give me anxiety over it?



Yep. And I would say the older I get, the more this occurs. It's most of the time when I'm not in people's company, but also very much so when I'm in unfamiliar company.

The above poster mentioned 'self-awareness', and this is what it is, IMO.
 
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So it's normal? And need to stop allowing my OCD to give me anxiety over it?
Well, first you'd have to define normal!

In short I consider 'normal' to be just being/conforming to the majority in a society. I certainly don't think it's abnormal - almost everyone has self-awareness, but with differing depths. Having a high self-awareness doesn't necessarily make someone either ill or well.

The way I see it, if something is causing you regular or constant problems, then it needs looking into. I'm not sure exactly how it relates to OCD without knowing what your OCD is like. It's a very broad issue. I used to wonder whether I have this, but again, I think everyone does, but in different forms and different levels of how far things go. e.g. I'm often considered OCD at work because I'm always organising things and rearranging them. However, when I've seen people in documentaries who say things like 'my Mum will die if I don't do this', then I can't relate to it. I don't have that at all - I simply get niggled by things that aren't exactly how I like them. I've always done this though, right from being as young as I can remember any kind of awareness. Most of them seem (and ARE actually unnecessary things) - but I can't argue with a niggle!


I have always written things out, and I wrote this some years ago
which you may or may not relate to. This is about self-awareness and realities that I see. (and sometimes wish against). It may look like nonsense though!

I also write a lot about OCD and different things that I have observed over the years. You might see something in there which sounds familiar.

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I wish there was a magic cure for anxiety that 'fits all', but I'm not sure there is one. I think you have to learn to manage your own anxiety based on your own experience and what works for you - as well as external help with it.

Personally, I try and keep to routines to keep myself stable. It's worked for me, but has its downsides too - it means I can't be as free as other people. I probably wouldn't recommend/advise my way, as we are generally a sociable species - however, I'm not, so it suits me, personally.
 
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Does anyone ever start to dig deep in their mind and have the realization that they're alive? Like this is all happening, this is all real. I'm really looking at a wall, driving a car, ect
Hard to explain but I feel someone knows what I mean. It gives me anxiety attacks. You think this is really my mind and if you really think about it it's hard to wrap you're mind around the fact that it's real?
Please say someone understands?

I feel the opposite, which gives me panic attacks. Feel disconnected and tryign to understand existence. Liek how do you know you are alive and in this world? what even is this world? etc
 
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