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Ocd anxiety feeling stuff is tainted

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Phil10

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I have worried about my garden for months the wheelie bin got put there it had a toilet plunger in this bin one time so I worry the ground is dirty.

My other worry is on Facebook I worry about adding people I worry I spoke to them when I was single on a dating site. So if somebody looks similar I believe they are tainted so can’t add them. How can I tackle this? I also have a similar worry with photos if I see a certain hair style at a tourist spot I worry it’s tainted if I use that photo?

I know these views are distorted but it goes back to everything feeling tainted?
 
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Hi Phil10!

I understand what you're going through. In the past, I used to worry that certain songs that sounded dark were somehow tainted and it bothered me listening to them. And I felt a similar way about dirty things too.

But the first step is identifying why you think these things are tainted. What is scaring you about them? What are you afraid will happen?

Once you really understand that, you can start to see that those things are just as harmless as anything else. It's okay to be afraid, but it's not okay to live your life afraid that the ground is dirty (it is dirt after all!) or that you shouldn't talk to people on Facebook that you knew from a dating site. This is just your mind making negative connections between things and purposefully putting obstacles in your way.

Consider the worst case scenario. What if you went out to your garden? What would happen? Allow yourself to face your fears. You'll gradually get used to the idea that these things aren't tainted, but that your mind has tainted them out of fear.

Good luck, Phil. Stay safe!
 
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Phil10

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The garden I am afraid if I touch the ground I will have toilet plunger germs on my items or hands. Then the items will be contaminated. With Facebook I worry the ones I add are ones I spoke to often I spoke to people I never liked and said they were nice so I worry people will see me add them and they will be tainted. Thing is these people are often not the same people many were from another location but my ocd gets muddled. Sometimes I had been able to add people no anxiety but a few months ago I added people and deleted them as I couldn’t deal with the anxiety? The tainted issue started when something got dirty and I worried cleaning it isn’t enough I when through stages where I would replace items as I kept worrying they were dirty?
 
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Phil10

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So what’s the solution do I try and touch the garden and not worry?

With social media do I try and add these people or stay in my comfort zone and use social media less or perhaps not add too many new people? I would like to beat this but I added two people before and deleted them two days later?
 
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Normally therapists recommend doing an experiment. Touch the soil and see what happens.
 
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Phil10

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Tonight I went to the toilet and worried I needed a shower after it so I had one. 2nd of the day. Then I went to the toilet later and worried when I threw the toilet paper in I touched the bowl or water so I sat for 2 hours and tried to resist it. However I couldn’t do it so went in for another shower. I had tension at side of my head and felt I was going crazy. My ocd has suddenly got worse again. I said before when my anxiety is low my ocd increases but when I suffer bad anxiety my ocd worries become less of a worry. I feel I let myself down having 3 showers I tried to say I can wait until tomorrow but nothing would reassure me. Has anybody got any tips for when ocd gets taken over by anxiety? How do I ride these thoughts out if they become over whelming? To be fair tonight is the first in a while the ocd has got that bad but has anybody else experienced this before?
 
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I have worried about my garden for months the wheelie bin got put there it had a toilet plunger in this bin one time so I worry the ground is dirty.

My other worry is on Facebook I worry about adding people I worry I spoke to them when I was single on a dating site. So if somebody looks similar I believe they are tainted so can’t add them. How can I tackle this? I also have a similar worry with photos if I see a certain hair style at a tourist spot I worry it’s tainted if I use that photo?

I know these views are distorted but it goes back to everything feeling tainted?
Phil, I would recommend reading the book "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle and APPLYING the principles he talks about in your life. Just reading for an intellectual understanding won't make a difference. It was the very first thing that started to unlock me from my anxiety problems.

Meditating on my breath really helped too. Focusing on the sensation of my breath as it enters and leaves a nostril is what you do. I would recommend finding a teacher in your area or at least find some information on YouTube. This really helped me unlock from my anxiety too.
 
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