My issue is more so seeing everything in black and white and not understanding opposite opinions to mine. I also struggle with perfectionism and when I struggle to achieve it it causes a lot of anger.
I was diagnosed in 2019, for me, the perfectionism is all about been right. Raised by a dad that was ALWAYS correcting EVERY SINGLE LITTLE act/word/emotion made me develop this condicion.
Now i have to be SURE that im doing the right thing, talk in the right way ( so i became a excessive educated person and lost all authenticity when talking to strangers ).
Have to be SURE to learn all the facts before talking about any topic, so could not "be wrong" about any fact ( what made me in to a HUGE nerd for science, and a very nihilist )
Have to be sure that im not hurting anyone ( what aways put me in the "people peaser" side of things )
What i have to show for beeing daddy's little perfect robot ?
anxiety, repressed anger ( that sometimes explodes ), was morbid obese ( had to make gastroplasty surgery 10 years ago ), no job ( engineer ) and low self esteem.
Since the diagnoses i have changed a lot, and take no more BS from my dad. but the scars of a life time living like that will never go away.. the personality can only change so much.
*sry the bad english, but i am trying to not check every word like i used to
