now that you've been diagnosed. what's your earliest memory where you realized something isn't right?

[lifecangetbetter]

I'm curious. i don't think onset is at 30. i think the acceptance that you arent normal is at 30.
so tell me what your earliest memory is of not feeling quite right. go!

 

[CabbageMama]

I had a termination at 15, didn’t deal with it at all well and was put on lots of anti anxiety/antidepressant medication, which made me loads worse. Tried to kill myself and was admitted to a Psychiatric ward subsequently. Came out, pretended everything was fine, tried to end things again at 17. Admitted again, but then got discharged on the basis I wouldn’t try to kill myself again, so I didn’t. I’m 41 now. Have been back and forth to Doctors loads over the years, they have always just given me more medication, mostly told me I am depressed, both have always made me worse. Over the years have had diagnoses of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain Syndrome. It was last year that Bipolar 2 was suggested and, looking back, that fits best with what I have been going through and how I have been coping.

 

[StillDepressed]

I was brought up on a dairy farm and me and my Dad were getting the cows in.
My Dad hit his wellie, just to make a noise to get the cows moving
Later I tried it and it hurt.
But it also felt good, well not good, but it felt something and I never felt anything
So just so I could feel and when I was out of sight, I would regularly hurt myself
I was 7, I knew it wasn't right but obviously didn't understand what it was

So all my life I've been depressed and I thought it was the same for everyone
It was not until I hit crisis point (Probably for the 2nd time) at 21 I sought help
And realised it was not normal.