hi i am 21 i have been in children homes since i was 10 until i was 18 when i moved out and back with my mom i was a bit of a loner onlly had 2 friends and always wore my hat b/c i think it made me feel comfortable when i went out. then it started getting worse and i would only go out on the weekends for a drink to my m8s house was always to scared to go to the pub b/c i ccant be round alot of people, and now since last year i dont even leave my house not even on the weekend. i live with my girlfriend of 3 years and we have a 6 month old baby, about a month ago she was going to leave me because i cant leave the house. i do want to leave the house but im scared, nervos, shy and shake alot i also feel paranoid that people stare at me b/c i feel ugly i seem to get very depressed at night when my partner and child go to bed like now 4am in the morning and cant sleep. i cant even go to the doctors and now i dont even really talk much to my family members so that dont really call much to see me but i could talk all day on the phone to them,, so now im really scared of losing my partner and kid and everyday i build my self up to go out i just cant do it i am really sick of it all and dont know how to work this out b/c i know i will never be able to go see a doc or anything like that so i gues thats me like this until i die. can anyone help i sorry if this sounds stupid but its the best i could do.