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Hayley
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Hello, this is my first posting here.
For a long time now I have had the sneaking suspicion that I may be suffering from some sort of anxiety disorder but I just brushed the idea under the carpet thinking that I was just over reacting. However, the problems I had grew and grew and now I don't know what to do and I was hoping someone might be able to give me some advice.
It all started back in '07 when I started to be harrassed mentally by an older colleague who resented the idea that I had authority over her. I took the problems I was having to my manager when they got to the point that I was crying because of what was happening and I was absolutely stunned when my manager denied there was a problem and told me that I was imagining it all.
This is when things started to go down hill. I started to panic about going into work. I wouldn't sleep with the worry of what was going to happen. I also started to eat lots and put on weight and then wouldn't at and would loose weight - not to the point of being anorexic or bullemic or anything but it still effected me to the point that I started calling into work sick and my absence level went sky high. I eventually quit that job last month aftr 2 years of feeling like I did.
It developed into my being nervous about going out - even just to do food shopping. Constantly thinking of what other people were looking at me for, what were they thinking about me? Did I look stupid?
It also effected my in the way that I am never able to comit to anything because I start thinking of ways in which the project I am involved with is going to make me look stupid. This has seen me turn down some really great opportunities and pull out of others which then spirals me into feeling down and depressed.
For instance, I just quit college because I used to panic about going in and how I was going to fail the course. Every lunch time at college would be spent alone because I didn't have the guts to go and mingle with the others.
It's gotten to the point where I just want to stay alone all day, away from other people and yet I crave the company and it puts me down.
I don't want to speak to anybody because it makes me feel stupid and like a failure and I don't know what to do.
For a long time now I have had the sneaking suspicion that I may be suffering from some sort of anxiety disorder but I just brushed the idea under the carpet thinking that I was just over reacting. However, the problems I had grew and grew and now I don't know what to do and I was hoping someone might be able to give me some advice.
It all started back in '07 when I started to be harrassed mentally by an older colleague who resented the idea that I had authority over her. I took the problems I was having to my manager when they got to the point that I was crying because of what was happening and I was absolutely stunned when my manager denied there was a problem and told me that I was imagining it all.
This is when things started to go down hill. I started to panic about going into work. I wouldn't sleep with the worry of what was going to happen. I also started to eat lots and put on weight and then wouldn't at and would loose weight - not to the point of being anorexic or bullemic or anything but it still effected me to the point that I started calling into work sick and my absence level went sky high. I eventually quit that job last month aftr 2 years of feeling like I did.
It developed into my being nervous about going out - even just to do food shopping. Constantly thinking of what other people were looking at me for, what were they thinking about me? Did I look stupid?
It also effected my in the way that I am never able to comit to anything because I start thinking of ways in which the project I am involved with is going to make me look stupid. This has seen me turn down some really great opportunities and pull out of others which then spirals me into feeling down and depressed.
For instance, I just quit college because I used to panic about going in and how I was going to fail the course. Every lunch time at college would be spent alone because I didn't have the guts to go and mingle with the others.
It's gotten to the point where I just want to stay alone all day, away from other people and yet I crave the company and it puts me down.
I don't want to speak to anybody because it makes me feel stupid and like a failure and I don't know what to do.
