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drew_71
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- Mar 24, 2010
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Recently I feel like I'm going crazy, I just can't explain it. I have a running commentary in my head, telling me what I'm doing, and when I'm doing it wrong, but its my own voice, I just can't seem to stop it. I also keep getting very violent urges, right now I just want to pick my computer up and smash it over the sink in the room, just to see what it would look like after, but I don't really to because...it's my computer and I can't afford a new one. I settle for punching things, mainly the wall and the floor, but I really just want to smash everything I own, just to see what they would look like broken. I also get massive swings of mood, where I will be really really low, and then all of a sudden go crazy with energy and start cleaning my whole house, which I am normally too lazy to do! I had an appointment with an NHS psychiatrist today, and I thought that would be good, because I want to get better and not feel like this, but I found my self downplaying everything when I spoke to her, I suffer from depression and anxiety, and am on meds for that, so I kinda just tried to put everything down to that. But when I left the part of me, or not me, I'm not sure, that does the commentary was telling me that I did well, and that its good I didn't tell her everything. I feel like my own mind is my enemy and I don't know what to do 
