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Not really bipolar

Poopy Doll

Poopy Doll

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I have sciatica or piriformis syndrome, not sure which or both. And I get very depressed about it hurting. And I'm afraid to go places where I have to sit and stand. And it isn't bipolar to feel sick and tired of dealing with this for over 15 years. I cannot emotionally handle the pain anymore because I had prozac induced lupus years ago. After that I had fibromyalgia from depakote. And now THIS because of the sedentary lifestyle the drugs induced. And I get brave every so often and go out and try to do normal things but I get hurt. How stupid is it to call my efforts and reactions bipolar ??

And how stupid is it to call my insomnia, induced by drug dependency, manic ?? The doctor actually believes it's the bipolar. There's no way to change his point of view. He believes the bipolar is coming back when it is the changes to the drugs that create this effect.

So now everything I do is seen through this filter called bipolar. If I am assertive with people who operate out of Critical Parental patterns, I am accused of being manic.

And I think going into hiding mode isn't depression at all for me. I'm like a wounded animal hiding in it's cave, waiting to heal it's wounds. And everyone wants me to exercise and fix myself when every fiber in my being wants to stay home and heal.

Furthermore, and in conclusion, I am fine in my limited world until I have to go to some medical appointment like a mammogram. And then I get hurt terribly. It is so ironic that for medical tests I have to get hurt. I went to a clinic on Monday to arrange for more mammograms, ultra sound, 3D picture and a bone density. They are helping me to death.
 
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DanL15000

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I sure understand. After all the years spent trying to figure out what was wrong with me, I finally had a Psychiatrist that helped. And by that I mean if quality of life is any kind of indicator he helped!

But do to circumstances I am seeing a therapist and awaiting a new Psychiatrist. And the therapist is so new her license hasn't arrived yet!

And she....She....SHE....had the audacity to suggest that I may be bipolar and the the Psychiatrist may have misdiagnosed.

All just a pain right now of course...but if anyone tries changing my meds that I don't trust, there is going to be a battle.
 
Poopy Doll

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Dan, I am afraid for you because new doctors like to change things. I live by the motto "If it's not broke, don't fix it."

Something that I do that works for me, may not apply to you, but I bring a friend with me into every psychiatrist appointment.
 
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