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Henrysmum
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- Jun 25, 2018
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Hello. I joined the forum recently, but haven't posted until now.
I've read lots of the posts here and I realise that I am lucky. My problems compared to most are trivial, but they've overwelmed me.
I am too much of a chicken to actually commit suicide, but I think about ways and means of ending my life a lot. I don't have the nerve to make that step, I'm essentially a wimp. I'm not even sure I should be posting. I know my sibling would say I really just need to get a grip on myself and stop acting like a child, but a combination of money worries, health concerns, unemployment and isolation have me firmly in their grip.
I feel like I don't matter to a soul and never will. I'm not sure when I was last happy for more than a fleeting time, I'm not sure I ever was. I feel a failure. I'm failing myself and I don't know what way to fix things. I don't really want to die, I just don't want to continue living like this. If only there was a reset button in life.
I've read lots of the posts here and I realise that I am lucky. My problems compared to most are trivial, but they've overwelmed me.
I am too much of a chicken to actually commit suicide, but I think about ways and means of ending my life a lot. I don't have the nerve to make that step, I'm essentially a wimp. I'm not even sure I should be posting. I know my sibling would say I really just need to get a grip on myself and stop acting like a child, but a combination of money worries, health concerns, unemployment and isolation have me firmly in their grip.
I feel like I don't matter to a soul and never will. I'm not sure when I was last happy for more than a fleeting time, I'm not sure I ever was. I feel a failure. I'm failing myself and I don't know what way to fix things. I don't really want to die, I just don't want to continue living like this. If only there was a reset button in life.