
martyn6291
Active member
So here i am again...its been a reasonable week so far...even today was good until lunch time when i started to drop a bit....then some more
I am noticing that i have been less prone to rapid cycling since i been on the meds but to be honest there are times when i go back down and its hard to get up.
My girlfriend has been stressed about things and i have become less tolerant of her problems, mainly because she explodes into stuff and unless im on a reasonable high i struggle to cope with stuff...if anything i get very angry at her for being so prone to silly stresses...when the times im on a downer...its like trying to climb mount everest on crutches!..but i do try to stay up!
I have had one manic episode today...when i got in from work...i was rushing round the house..up and down stairs..literally running...and had to sleep for an hour or so to calm down....i wasnt down when i was manic..but going from down at lunch to manic at 4 pm to down now...it sucks!....right now i wish my girlfriend would just go away...but when i lift myself out of my stuff...i need her...and love her.
but for now her pathetic moaning about stuff that really doesnt matter..i wish i had her problems, as to me they seem like nothing....but then again one mans ill are another mans pleasures...it just gets to me how much mental energy my mania and depression takes!!!...and she doesnt understand.....
i also get fed up of saying sorry to her when im down..
jeesus...its all just a bloody mess!
I am noticing that i have been less prone to rapid cycling since i been on the meds but to be honest there are times when i go back down and its hard to get up.
My girlfriend has been stressed about things and i have become less tolerant of her problems, mainly because she explodes into stuff and unless im on a reasonable high i struggle to cope with stuff...if anything i get very angry at her for being so prone to silly stresses...when the times im on a downer...its like trying to climb mount everest on crutches!..but i do try to stay up!
I have had one manic episode today...when i got in from work...i was rushing round the house..up and down stairs..literally running...and had to sleep for an hour or so to calm down....i wasnt down when i was manic..but going from down at lunch to manic at 4 pm to down now...it sucks!....right now i wish my girlfriend would just go away...but when i lift myself out of my stuff...i need her...and love her.
but for now her pathetic moaning about stuff that really doesnt matter..i wish i had her problems, as to me they seem like nothing....but then again one mans ill are another mans pleasures...it just gets to me how much mental energy my mania and depression takes!!!...and she doesnt understand.....
i also get fed up of saying sorry to her when im down..
jeesus...its all just a bloody mess!
