- Apr 8, 2019
I am a master student of management in a reputable university. I diagnosed with bipolar disorder last year. I went to the psychiatric because of the unsuccessful suicide attempt he prescribed some medicine but they have not worked properly. I feel depressed now and I have no social life. I passed the phase of extreme anxiety and now I just feel numb. after attempting suicide I decided to study abroad so I moved to Italy. here I couldn't find any friend or I couldn't build up any social life. I met a guy and it ended up loving me in a violent way so I left him but he didn't leave me so I was struggling with him and his stalking for several months last year he beat me so hard sometimes. After that, I felt even more depressed that I stopped visiting those few people which I knew here. I feel worthless. I can't love or take care of myself I feel stupid, fat and ugly despite the fact that I am straight A student, logically I know it but I cannot believe it. I study in one of the best universities in Itay in a very beautiful city but I can't help myself. I see my classmate on FB or Instagram hanging out but they never invite me. I understand them because I have nothing to interest them. socialising makes me anxious. It's been one year and a half since I am here but there is no progress in my social life. I feel extremely unattractive (no one has ever said to me that I am ugly or something and I heard the opposite quite often because I cannot believe anything good about myself). I know my story is quite boring but I am not in a position to get a professional help so I hope that someone with some nice words and clear mind just understands me.