- Mar 4, 2018
I feel really Depressed because one of my neighbors is leaving. I cannot stop thinking about it. I want to move myself but I Cant since it is too expensive to move and i havent got a full time job. I'm going to miss them because They were really nice and it's a shame they are leaving. I feel like nothing matters anymore I dont like living were I am because I have no freedom and I still live with my parents. I just feel like moving is not going to happen for me. I'm going to die alone and unloved and depressed and there is nothing I Can do about it. On top of all of this I'm constantly forgetful and have zero motivation/impulsive due to the medication I'm on. I just want to die I'm fed up of life and everything in it. The way I see it things arent going to get any better and I Would be better off dieing now whilst I can before it gets any worse. I hate life nowadays and wish I was born on another planet that is peace loving and kind because I hate this one. People playing psychological tricks on me is why I developed psychosis and now depression I hate life and if I didn't have my family I would probably be gone by now.i just feel like I Would be better off selling my belongings off and committing suicide.