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Antidepressants can be of value when the main root of the problem is depression. Not everyone who is bipolar has the same intensity of mood swings or symptoms. My "highs" aren't readily recognized as a high because I tend not to get euphoric and rarely become grandiose and I can always (at least these days) keep a lid on my spending. Everyone has to be treated as an individual and what doesn't work for one will work for another.
 
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Exactly.

That's what I love about this site; different folks, different strokes. I s'pose that's why Bi-P is like a spectrum, depending where one is on the spectrum depends whether you're more receptive to ADs, anti-psychotics (ie. me) or other meds.
Thanks, coz I feel able to give more specific ADs a go, if necessary. :eek:)
 
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BPII Beautiful People Disorder...grandiose ideas? me?

Hi Lozzi:welcome:
hang on in there lovely...only lovely people have bp! Meds..like Dollit said...can be useful for some but there is also an argument that antidepressants make the highs worse in bp's ..but it is all such a personal thing and takes forever to fine tune...to work out how and if your medication is working for you. I was on anti d's for many years and they did help with depression but I felt a bit numb as well...and no interest in hanky panky while on them! At the moment for the times when I am high and low at the same time..more panicky (although not panic attacks) I take diazepam and these are bloody fantastic! But a bit of an emergency fix, once in a while, rather than a long term solution. I also take stuff for sleeping as insomnia is an ongoing problem.

I too have had loony tunes days where I have slept with people I shouldn't have, drank too much and generally thought I was pretty fabulous and indestructable. Then there are real paraniod times...at the moment I am careful about what I look at on the net because I have convinced myself someone has put spyware on my computer and is checking everything I do...like they would really chose my bank account to hack into when it is always up to its overdraft limit...but logic doesnt enter when you are off there does it. Self esteem is another area of trouble...confident, happy, business woman of the year, socialite, fantastic friends (some I have had most of my life) funny and up there ...and then...miserable, fat and ugly, not as bright as I thought I was, not as talented as I thought I was, inactive and not a good mother, not as valued by friends as I thought I was and so on. It is easy to convince yourself either way and the battle for me is in keeping it reigned and as near to the middle line as possible.

Dashem..can I ask something about what you said...how do you know when the highs are coming? Do you keep a diary...is there a pattern?

Sorry for going on and on and one last thing..the diagnoses is a hard one to accept but you are still YOU and with the diagnoses you can read up and work it out which I am doing too. Reading 'You dont have to be famous to have manic depression' at the moment. It is light hearted but there has been several 'yes..that is me' moments.

take good care of yourself
Ella:)
 
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They've told me as soon as my bipolar meds are sorted they'll take me off the citalopram but they don't want me without any meds whatsoever especially with me being extremely suicidal :unsure: I was a bit worried because it was the AD's that set off my mania last time. Originally they thought it was the AD's causing it so they stopped them but it carried on for months after so they were out of my system.
The citalopram is now causing hallucinations so the quicker I'm off of them the better really!

I hate the paranoia! I get it at both sides of the spectrum and both are as bad as each other! When I'm having "looney tooney" (i loved that :)) days the paranoia is that people are spying on me and it's hard to get me to eat or take meds because I'm sure someone was trying to poison me *sighs* :redface: Now it's that my boyfriends cheating on me or he's not talking to me etc.

Mine usually come straight after a depressive episode, but again that isn't a certainity! Do you keep a diary?

Thanks Ellamental :hug: my friends always say that to me, I may have bipolar but I'm still me :) it's just an added extra lol!
 
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me me me it all about me....tell me, what do you think about me

hi there fellow looney tune!:D
It sounds rough with hallucinations. Whats the hold up with new meds again?

I have been keeping a diary for a friend and it is obvious there are some triggers and patterns but nothing definitive really. Strangely I havnt been keeping one for me! I might start today as have been thinking about doing it for some time and really it only takes a few mins a day doesn't it. My psych whose thing is BP did recommend I do this but kinda forgot.

Feeling paranoid is one of th worst bits...I guess you have to think why would this person WANT to spy on me or you, why would they want to cheat on me, not talk to me. He is your boyfriend becasue he wants to be..he has a choice in that doesnt he. He is there because despite thinking you are not, you are worth his time and attention and I am sure he wouldnt piosen you....more likely to push you off a bridge!!! Wel thats my chosen paranoid way that my partner would get rid of me..but it changes daily! A lovely man I know told me a long time ago that he says to himself..this is an illness and it will pass...I almost chant it...and it does pass. I still hurt people with my madness sometimes by accusing or implying and this does not help the paranoia, just makes you feel bad about it. Its all about trust isnt it and I find that hard.

Anyway..its that me me me thing..

me me me it all about me
what do you think about me?

Made me laugh, good luck with the meds and stay with us. When I have been suicidal, and it hasnt been too often luckily, it was my children and the vivid picure of them finding me that stopeed me in my tracks.

Off to have a nice toasted sandwich in the garden
Ella :tea:
 
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I'm not sure tbh, my next psych appointment is on tuesday so hopefully *crosses fingers* will get sorted then! Something to do with not sure if its I or II? :s

I've been told to keep a diary so I and my boyfriend can see if there's a pattern and see if there's any triggers too. It's just a lot to do :|

I don't tend to think WHY lol, just that they are :unsure: My boyfriend always tells me he loves me and the BP is an added extra lol! "At the end of the day I love you and everything that comes with you" is his usual thing and like your partner it's an illness and it might pass. :)

Thanks looney tune ellamental your post really made me smile :) Hope your toasted sandwich was nice!!

Lozzi :flowers:
 
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