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Newbie: Which discipline of councillor do I need?

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MadDash

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Hi

Very simple, one time only question: which discipline of councillor do I need if at all? Sounds melodramatic but I've always felt broken; devoid of emotion, rather cut off family members than have an argument, always restless (career & life), fairly successful but feel useless and worthless, that kind of thing.

Either I need a career adviser or someone who digs a little deeper. No idea what the difference is between a psychiatrist, psychoanalyst or psych-whatever-yst.

Thanks in advance.

P.s. I obviously know that I'm not useless or worthless but thanks anyway.
 
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00SjC

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Hey, you don't sound dramatic in the least. Do you have any idea as to why you have always felt broken?
I think perhaps seeing your gp, explaining to him/her how you've been feeling and let them refer you for an assessment that could lead to seeing a psychologist who could help you understand what's going on. (It's what happened for me) and see how it goes from there.

Feel free to message me anytime if you're ever in need of a chat.
 
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Hi, thanks for the response and sorry that mine has taken a while (too much travelling up and down a motorway).

Anyway, I took the time to think about the "broken" bit:

Broken? Well it feels quite self-absorbed to think about it and not easy when I’ve left myself time to write about it but basically, although I have a wife and two kids who love me:

1. I feel like I’ve been on the verge of tears for a few years (sounds like I’m a poet and don’t know it).

2. Self-belief/confidence hardly any although I come across as the most confident person you’d know until something I say at work is challenged. I then back down straight away even if I know I’m right. I’d like to think that I’m adhering to the observations made by the Dunning-Kruger study but I’m not that intelligent. It's strange though as I keep getting what are described as quite "senior" positions and currently get quite a good day-rate and can hold the position down.

3. Friends: none. People describe me as “breezing through life not bothering with friends”. More precisely I don’t know how to do it. I remember being scared of trying as a kid because “obviously no one will want to do x/y/z with me”. It's worth saying though that people describe me as being their friend.

4. I trust no-one; ever. I always look to understand what their angle is and don’t take compliments as sincere.

These are all just glimpses of things that I can put my finger on. Really though it is just a perpetual feeling of something missing, which means that I’m always trying new things but I never get excited about anything or feel like celebrating anything that happens to me (for the good); although I’ll make a big thing of things that happen to my wife and kids.

If I was to be an amateur psycho-whatever, I’d say it comes back to my early childhood; apparently being picked on by my father, treated like rubbish by my mother and beaten by an alcoholic step-father but as the words from “Chess” say “pity the child but not forever”. Basically, it was a long time ago, so I should have moved on and to a large extent I have…
 
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Oh, I forgot to add the cliche that always comes to mind but fits. The one about being able to feel lonely in a crowded room.
 
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well at least you have a wife and kids. those are free potential friends. i can't imagine being a husband and not being friends with my wife.
 
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