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Newbie struggling with BPD and chronic untelated health oroblems

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Smiley50

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Hi, I'd like to thank anyone in advance who may read this and reply or just can relate to my situation.
I was diagnosed BPD about 30yrs ago. I've taken antidepressants but they don't seem to help anymore. My gp/Local Mental Health nurse say I need to attend self help/CBT courses. I take a lot of meds for long term chronic health due to faulty genes and CFS/meds make me sleep a lot so I'm concerned that if I miss a couple of sessions I'll be taken off the list. I did explain this and I'm also on full disability benefit for care/mobility. The consensus is 'we won't give you meds to stabilise your mood so get on with it'. I'm not taking maximum dose of my happy pills and I'm not making excuses, just think if I can get my moods/sleep pattern regulated I'll be better able to cope with the rest! I'm frustrated that my gp and hospital depts don't liase and pass the buck so I'm going round in circles. I've lost everything and everyone cos I'm hard work. I've always been a misfit and do try to be positive n proactive. My body can't heal itself so I'm fatigued n now have a low immunity system.
I've done a lot of work on myself yet feel I'm treading water. I don't know anyone in a similar situation and know many are much worse off, I'm either manic or suicidal, it's the extremes and unpredictability I struggle with. But I've managed to book swimming n diet classes so I'm sure that'll help.
Sorry, I didn't mean to waffle, not slept all week and can't focus enough to edit this. Whilst I don't have answers, I'm a good listener so happy to do what I can, the distraction might help me also! Thanks x
 
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Jules5

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:welcome: to the Forum. I can relate to the not sleeping part of your post and most of the things you said. I am excited tht you are going to swim classes this way you will get around others and know you are not alone. I am sorry about your physical problems. The BPD I know is like a roller coaster. Keeping yourself busy will help both mentally and physically. How are you doing spiritually? Something is keeping you above water.

You know what I had to finally do about sleep is just accept that I am awake and now I get up all hours of the night. I still stress that I did not get enough sleep but my body seems wide awake and has no problems with sleeping It is all in my head. I did get on Trazodone for sleep and has helped quite a bit. It is tough I know all to well.

Wishing lots of happiness today Big hugs
 
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Trekster33

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Welcome I've just joined and I have similar disabilities to you.

Can you get any support workers in from your local area that specialise in mental health? I mean community care. I've made an agreement on my care plan that when I start mentally pushing my home carers away (I swore at one once because I wanted to kill myself at the time) they do a care plan review. This year I managed to ring up and ask for a care review because I was tempted to snap at my carers.

I found colorimeter glasses to be beneficial for my CFS when I was unwell. They filtered out the wavelengths of light that were overloading my brain.

I also found doing a food elimination diet helpful, benzoates turn me into a monster so I avoid them at all costs, gluten and dairy also affect me, pineapple hurts my joints as does bromelain.

Some supplements help me as well.

Right now your brain and body are sending out more signals than you can cope with but you are strong for getting this far and can tune out these signals or attend to them, I believe in you.
 
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Creggas

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Hi,
I'm new too!

That's sounds alot that you're going through bless u!

Some little health tips to balance mood (as I've been trying to for 2 years now until recently told I may have BPD)...But I tried all sorts like detoxing caffeine, having a sleep and work routine, a no sugar low carb higher fat diet (keto), drinking more water exercising 4 times a week keeping a mood diary and being on contraception. Also I'm on sertraline an antidepressant in case u know of others?!
ALthough I felt fit, energetic and looked healthy...inside with BPD my mind was a mess.
Do you know what triggers your BPD?
 
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Smiley50

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Hampshire uk
Hi,
I'm new too!

That's sounds alot that you're going through bless u!

Some little health tips to balance mood (as I've been trying to for 2 years now until recently told I may have BPD)...But I tried all sorts like detoxing caffeine, having a sleep and work routine, a no sugar low carb higher fat diet (keto), drinking more water exercising 4 times a week keeping a mood diary and being on contraception. Also I'm on sertraline an antidepressant in case u know of others?!
ALthough I felt fit, energetic and looked healthy...inside with BPD my mind was a mess.
Do you know what triggers your BPD?
Thank you so much for your advice/support. Sertraline no longer works at 150mg so I've stopped taking it. Hoping I can somehow self regulate and accept the bad days! No idea triggers but anything remotely stressful starts the roller-coaster and self doubt/loathing etc.
My divorce is due end of the month and I'm moving for a fresh srart so no ghosts or bad reminders. looking forward to a ground floor home and hanging washing outside (it's the many simple things I try to focus attention on)
I got a kitten, if a pet is for therapy and wellness, a letter from gp or mental health overrides a 'no pets' tenancy. Thought I'd share in hopes it helps others x.
On a very positive note, my awol husband of the last four years and I reconnected in June. Sadly he's still a cheat, liar and just wanted money. I am so much in love with him but he's no good for women and at least I have no 'what if' running around my head.

I've done much reflecting, and am definitely in a better mindset. THIS FORUM IS A LIFESAVER and I thank you all for taking the time to read/reply. Still prefer my own company and now working on being spontaneous when my health allows me a good, no, a great day! Hope everyone is doing OK xxx
 
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Smiley50

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Thank you so much for your advice/support. Sertraline no longer works at 150mg so I've stopped taking it. Hoping I can somehow self regulate and accept the bad days! No idea triggers but anything remotely stressful starts the roller-coaster and self doubt/loathing etc.
My divorce is due end of the month and I'm moving for a fresh srart so no ghosts or bad reminders. looking forward to a ground floor home and hanging washing outside (it's the many simple things I try to focus attention on)
I got a kitten, if a pet is for therapy and wellness, a letter from gp or mental health overrides a 'no pets' tenancy. Thought I'd share in hopes it helps others x.
On a very positive note, my awol husband of the last four years and I reconnected in June. Sadly he's still a cheat, liar and just wanted money. I am so much in love with him but he's no good for women and at least I have no 'what if' running around my head.

I've done much reflecting, and am definitely in a better mindset. THIS FORUM IS A LIFESAVER and I thank you all for taking the time to read/reply. Still prefer my own company and now working on being spontaneous when my health allows me a good, no, a great day! Hope everyone is doing OK xxx
Yes, keto definitely helps with energy levels though I crave carbs in winter. I have to find a way to trick my mind lol x
 
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Creggas

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Sheffield, UK
Thank you so much for your advice/support. Sertraline no longer works at 150mg so I've stopped taking it. Hoping I can somehow self regulate and accept the bad days! No idea triggers but anything remotely stressful starts the roller-coaster and self doubt/loathing etc.
My divorce is due end of the month and I'm moving for a fresh srart so no ghosts or bad reminders. looking forward to a ground floor home and hanging washing outside (it's the many simple things I try to focus attention on)
I got a kitten, if a pet is for therapy and wellness, a letter from gp or mental health overrides a 'no pets' tenancy. Thought I'd share in hopes it helps others x.
On a very positive note, my awol husband of the last four years and I reconnected in June. Sadly he's still a cheat, liar and just wanted money. I am so much in love with him but he's no good for women and at least I have no 'what if' running around my head.

I've done much reflecting, and am definitely in a better mindset. THIS FORUM IS A LIFESAVER and I thank you all for taking the time to read/reply. Still prefer my own company and now working on being spontaneous when my health allows me a good, no, a great day! Hope everyone is doing OK xxx
I'd focus on getting some stability in one area. It sounds like a lot of change in your life which is probably very overwhelming. I'm separated with my husband but we r going to try work on things but I feel so lonely and hurt and hes very hurt too. (I left first due to neglect and other reasons). So I understand how emotionally difficult that can be.

...but could it be your husband is the trigger then? Glad u feel in a better place! What have u called ur kitten🐱 ❤ x x x
 
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