- Jul 5, 2020
Like most I feel isolated and alone, no real friends, although I really don't like being around people anymore, I find interacting with people so draining, I no longer see the joy or have a sense of humour. Up until about 6 years ago I was outgoing, friendly, not shy etc. Then I was bullied and harassed on a daily basis by 5 neighbours and their 4 dogs for 3 years, during which time my Dad passed away rather quickly. I couldn't take it, I spoke to police, authorities, people, I told them I was drowning but no one listened. No one helped. I tried to take my own life and ended up in hospital for 8 weeks. 3 years later I was staring to deal with life better, starting to heal. I have a dog and he has helped me tremendously, without him I doubt I would still be here. But as always life just can't be nice. I keep myself to myself, avoid neighbours and people as much as possible. I live in a ground floor flat that I bought 20 years ago. We have communal gardens. One neighbour is causing me problems and my mental health has just crashed, I am in a very dark place, wondering why, I avoid, ignore, stay out of the way, make myself small, why is this not enough, why do people still feel the need to make your world miserable. His daughters boyfriend has rented the flat above him recently, both the daughter and the boyfriend have kids from previous relationships. Only he and I ever use the rear garden. Due to covid and I being a vulnerable adult I had to shield so have been using the garden more the past few months. The three of them have decided that they want me to stop using the garden so they can have it for their personal use. He has already taken over the car park with numerous cars, now he wants the garden. Management Company have let him. No one in authority is willing to help, they have spread lies and gossip about me, so now the people who live around me who once left me alone, now there pointing laughing and staring. No helping my emotions, I dread going outside, try to sneak around as much as I can. I'm hurting so bad inside. How do you deal with the pain? Thanks for letting me unburden. I actually feel a little better. Thank you.