I am here to hopefully lend some support to others as well as get some support when I need it. My story pretty much stems from family mental illness that was not my own. Growing up I led a well adjusted life for the most part, I was pretty social, did extremely well in school, and into a lot of activities especially volleyball. The issue was I had an older brother who had severe mental health issue. This didn't bother me and I still loved him. My parents were great and treated us great. One day when I was 11 years old and my brother was 15, I guess he couldn't handle things anymore. This is really hard for me. My brother killed my parents and injured myself.. I suppose he thought he killed all of us as he went off and killed himself. I can still visualize and hear all of it happening in my head. I to this day ask myself why God did not take me as well. I wish he did many times. I now live with my Aunt and Uncle and I owe them everything for keeping me going and focused on bettering my life for my future. I suffer from CPTSD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Major depressive Disorder.