- Jan 24, 2010
Hi, Ive finally accepted this year that i may have bi polar. This is after years of highs (not real highs) and lows in mood. My relationship of 22yrs ended 18mths ago, my decision, following a long period of destructive behaviour....using chat rooms, drinking way too much, periods of very low moods, cutting myself off from friends and family. Ive been treated with anti depressants, but then as soon as ive felt better have stopped taking them. I left the one person who probably understood me the most (my husband) to rent a flat to initially give me space. Then after a visit to the local animal rescue centre decided we (my daughter and I) needed to have our own house so we could get a cat!! All this at the time seemed rational behaviour, but looking back its not. Ive put myself at risk with guys when on a high fueled by alcohol. Have finally told myself enough is enough. My ex is still in my life, despite me getting involved with someone else (who I know prob wont deal with my moods). Need to get some control back in my life for me, daughter and family. Any advice, support greatly received.