Hey every one
Im new to the forum I find it very hard expressing how I feel to my family and friends even tho I have tried they dont seem to understand so I tend to hide away . I used to suffer with some anxiety and ocd as a child was gone in my twenties . Then I started to feel my self getting anxious again my mid 20s I then got my self a little dog who is my best friend its like he saved me from loneliness and anxiety this dog is my world and has always been my number one priority . I was in a abusive relationship a few years ago was horrible this man abused me mentally , physically and emotionally . He never hurt my dog but many times he would lock me in rooms and tell me things that hes let him out the door stuff to scare me very often my exe partner would threaten to kill me and my dog in a car he would petrify me by speeding the car up threating to crash it . I cant believe now looking back I allowed some man to treat me like that . When I left the relationship I thought I would go back to being my happy self again some one who was always out and bout .
This year particulary and last year was particulary bad for me I take my dog litterally every where I go people just asume Im a crazy dog lady . Im just so scared of some thing happening to him . I work from home and im self employed but even my work has started to be affected by my anxiety . I have days where the door bell will go and Im inserious panic I check the doors are shut constant . If I have to pop to the shop across the road I will have like hundreds of possible things that could happen run threw my mind if I was to pop to the shop . I have a hard time even travelling in cars huge phobia of certain roads I havent been coping well . Im currently in an amazing relationship with an amazing man whos there for me and is so amazing . I decided to be brave and go see my doctor he was very understanding he put me on 100 of sertraline for now he gave me 5 weeks worth and wanted to see me after a few weeks so going to go see him and speak to him with how I have been getting on also being looking at doing some private therapy sessions Im just so anxious going to places it was hard for me to even speak to my doctor the first week the medication had me feeling like a zombie I carried on with it and My partner has noticed a huge change it me I felt bit better . But earlier I heard a knock at the door was a delivery I just went into a massive panic some thing in my head was telling me I wasnt safe so I checked the door hundreds of times then for some reason my head told me to cut my hair then me and my dog will be safe I just started cutting pieces of my hair out . Im not doing well at all Im a anxious mess sat in my room scared .
Im sick of living life like this I just want to be normal and live normally Im going to go see my doctor tomorrow well see if I can get a home visit. If any more has any advice or any thing thats helped them whether it be medication or therapies or any advice ill be very greatful not feeling great right now .
Im new to the forum I find it very hard expressing how I feel to my family and friends even tho I have tried they dont seem to understand so I tend to hide away . I used to suffer with some anxiety and ocd as a child was gone in my twenties . Then I started to feel my self getting anxious again my mid 20s I then got my self a little dog who is my best friend its like he saved me from loneliness and anxiety this dog is my world and has always been my number one priority . I was in a abusive relationship a few years ago was horrible this man abused me mentally , physically and emotionally . He never hurt my dog but many times he would lock me in rooms and tell me things that hes let him out the door stuff to scare me very often my exe partner would threaten to kill me and my dog in a car he would petrify me by speeding the car up threating to crash it . I cant believe now looking back I allowed some man to treat me like that . When I left the relationship I thought I would go back to being my happy self again some one who was always out and bout .
This year particulary and last year was particulary bad for me I take my dog litterally every where I go people just asume Im a crazy dog lady . Im just so scared of some thing happening to him . I work from home and im self employed but even my work has started to be affected by my anxiety . I have days where the door bell will go and Im inserious panic I check the doors are shut constant . If I have to pop to the shop across the road I will have like hundreds of possible things that could happen run threw my mind if I was to pop to the shop . I have a hard time even travelling in cars huge phobia of certain roads I havent been coping well . Im currently in an amazing relationship with an amazing man whos there for me and is so amazing . I decided to be brave and go see my doctor he was very understanding he put me on 100 of sertraline for now he gave me 5 weeks worth and wanted to see me after a few weeks so going to go see him and speak to him with how I have been getting on also being looking at doing some private therapy sessions Im just so anxious going to places it was hard for me to even speak to my doctor the first week the medication had me feeling like a zombie I carried on with it and My partner has noticed a huge change it me I felt bit better . But earlier I heard a knock at the door was a delivery I just went into a massive panic some thing in my head was telling me I wasnt safe so I checked the door hundreds of times then for some reason my head told me to cut my hair then me and my dog will be safe I just started cutting pieces of my hair out . Im not doing well at all Im a anxious mess sat in my room scared .
Im sick of living life like this I just want to be normal and live normally Im going to go see my doctor tomorrow well see if I can get a home visit. If any more has any advice or any thing thats helped them whether it be medication or therapies or any advice ill be very greatful not feeling great right now .