Hi im new here and i now realise ive had issues for years. A bit of background. Im 29 years old and the past 4.5 years have been really difficult. Ive been treated for anxiety and depression after having my son and reallu struggling. The meds have helped but not completely, ive been on the highest dose of the "non specialised" medication and currently on sertraline. Up until 3/4 weeks ago i was coping to the best of my abilities thinking i was normal and nothing was wrong. I had a major crash which forced me back to the doctors and they put me through to spor "mental health team" as URGENT. Ive got my 1st appointment on the 9th. Im going through a period of not knowing who i am, im self distructive, i lack emotions unless it regards my son and feel like im a robot on auto. I dont care about myself or my life and have actually made plans to kill myself twice in these 4 weeks. My ex is really important to me but then as always ive messed that up and we was getting along fine until this weekend till he found out about my self destructiveness. Now he hates me and ive lost his support. Ive failed my son due too all this. Ive done research like everybody does but im fitting into 3 personility disorders this cant be so can it?