- Jul 20, 2021
I had for the past few months new themes of ocd and it’s driving me insane because i can’t distinguish if it’s real or not... The one that is the most difficult to handle, especially at night, is the thought that i am going to do something bad (masturbation) and i’m afraid because i can feel the sensation coming and i cannot do anything so i start having anxiety and feeling ashamed and digusted of myself. But i’m afraid that if i succomb, that i’ll never stop doing it and that i’m going to be obsess with sex. I just cant keep on with this anymore because it really feels like it’s going to happen even if i know it’s not real, the repetitiveness of this thought and the sensations makes me really think that’s real... Is there anyone that struggles or has struggled with a similar thought ? I feel so helpless and ashamed of myself.