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moodylittlecow
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- Aug 24, 2009
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Hi everyone This is all very new to me so please excuse me if i rabble on or dont even say much come to think of it I have suffered from depression (i believe) from an early age Various drs etc believe its down to the abuse I suffered as a child. I believe that obviously has something to do with my mental state but I have been screaming at them for years its something else-I dont fit in anywhere I dont know who I am My brain does not work like other peoples I have an amazing boyfriend who puts up with all my nonsense which unfortunately has culminated in my daughter-the one thing that kept me going everyday in leaving home
Unfortunately this has left me spiralling out of control Drinking and medication binges -stuff I know is wrong but if I go to the dr he will take away my medication and this is all I feel keeps me on this earth at times
I went to visit a friend last week and she said I was almost unrecognisable she had worked in a family centre and felt I should look into bipolar disorder-she had dealings with women who were diagnosed I told her I could not talk to my dr as the other side of me comes out and brushes under the carpet the true reason for my visit I have had anti-depressants in the past unfortunately a lot made me drousy or more depressed so I took myself off of them telling my councellor and dr I felt fine
I hope to find some help or at least others who feel like me
Unfortunately this has left me spiralling out of control Drinking and medication binges -stuff I know is wrong but if I go to the dr he will take away my medication and this is all I feel keeps me on this earth at times
I went to visit a friend last week and she said I was almost unrecognisable she had worked in a family centre and felt I should look into bipolar disorder-she had dealings with women who were diagnosed I told her I could not talk to my dr as the other side of me comes out and brushes under the carpet the true reason for my visit I have had anti-depressants in the past unfortunately a lot made me drousy or more depressed so I took myself off of them telling my councellor and dr I felt fine
I hope to find some help or at least others who feel like me