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DisturbedGirl2009

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Hello guys and girls. I am new to the site and this is kind of the first time that i have said anything about this to anyone outside my closest friends.

Ok here goes.

I come from an abusive childhood, alchoholic, depressed and violent parents. The abuse was everything bar sexual, to which i will always be greatful. As far back as i can remember all i can see is violence and hurt. There is to much to go into on a forum, but i am sure that you can get the gist. I can remember that i started to cut myself at the rough age of 6 and i am in my 30s. My childhood still affect me to this day and i still get blackouts and flashback to then. I have numerous and deep scars both pysically and emotionally. I now have a family and i love them dearly but the urge still hits me like a freight train. It has been a few years since i have done any real damage, but, it takes everything that i have in me to do it. I still want to hurt/cut/mutilate and feel the release that i got from self harm.

Recently though i keep having the most unreal urge to keep going, self harmers never totally recover, it has been such a part of my life it is impossible for me to stop it totally. Small things like a song or a phrase will set my brain off and i feel like running to the bathroom...

Thank you for reading and taking the time to go through this, sorry for letting all this go but there was no other option
 
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Hi,

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