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Anne1971
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Hi
I only found this site yesterday so I haven't had much time to look around but from what I've seen iI already don't feel alone and it seems very supportive.
I have been suffering from depression on and off since my early teens and tried taking an overdose when I was at school. I have always felt very alone and never had many friends at school which is a trend that seems to have continued.
I'm now 36 and I moved from Leeds to Birmingham to live with my fiancee 5 years ago. I have always found it very difficult to make new friends and my fiancee doesn't have a wide circle of friends either so I found myself feeling more isolated. My financee is as supportive as he can be but he doesn't really understand whats going on, he wonders why he can't just 'make me happy', he does but I have more things going on in my head. I don't seem to be very good at finding good friends and have had bad experiences with some of them which left me feeling betrayed.
We both are having difficult times at work and this makes us both irritable and are think we are drifting apart slowly. He was my first boyfriend and it took me till I was 30 to meet him. I'm not sure if we have a normal relationship, he is more like my best friend and we tell each other everything, we never have had much of a sexual relationship as he has his own problems to deal with. Lately I have found that I need that side of things more and with all the problems we are having together I have started chatting with men on the internet and even meeting some of them. I feel like a real bad person doing this to my fiancee although he understands I have some needs that he can't fulfil.
It took a while for the tablets to start to work but there was an improvement but now I seem to have slipped back again and I seem to be catching every illness thats going round which leaves me really tired, I'm currently struggling through work with a cold and everytime I am off sick my manager is suspicious (thats not just me, she is suspicious of everyone who is off sick). I don't have the confidence to go for another job and I am so tired all the time I can't seem to start my pencil scketching again which I love. I just feel like curling up in the dark and crying all the time.
Thats the short story of me so far, thanks for listening.
I only found this site yesterday so I haven't had much time to look around but from what I've seen iI already don't feel alone and it seems very supportive.
I have been suffering from depression on and off since my early teens and tried taking an overdose when I was at school. I have always felt very alone and never had many friends at school which is a trend that seems to have continued.
I'm now 36 and I moved from Leeds to Birmingham to live with my fiancee 5 years ago. I have always found it very difficult to make new friends and my fiancee doesn't have a wide circle of friends either so I found myself feeling more isolated. My financee is as supportive as he can be but he doesn't really understand whats going on, he wonders why he can't just 'make me happy', he does but I have more things going on in my head. I don't seem to be very good at finding good friends and have had bad experiences with some of them which left me feeling betrayed.
We both are having difficult times at work and this makes us both irritable and are think we are drifting apart slowly. He was my first boyfriend and it took me till I was 30 to meet him. I'm not sure if we have a normal relationship, he is more like my best friend and we tell each other everything, we never have had much of a sexual relationship as he has his own problems to deal with. Lately I have found that I need that side of things more and with all the problems we are having together I have started chatting with men on the internet and even meeting some of them. I feel like a real bad person doing this to my fiancee although he understands I have some needs that he can't fulfil.
It took a while for the tablets to start to work but there was an improvement but now I seem to have slipped back again and I seem to be catching every illness thats going round which leaves me really tired, I'm currently struggling through work with a cold and everytime I am off sick my manager is suspicious (thats not just me, she is suspicious of everyone who is off sick). I don't have the confidence to go for another job and I am so tired all the time I can't seem to start my pencil scketching again which I love. I just feel like curling up in the dark and crying all the time.
Thats the short story of me so far, thanks for listening.