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Toady
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I started hearing voices, seeing things and feeling things about 4 years ago. At first the voices were supportive and it was like a knowing or telepathy but then Last year it got bad, they said they had to change me to another server and things started going down hill from there they kept telling me that my daughter isn't my daughter and my family wasn't my family and that I should avoid certain friends they tried to get me to kill myself but I wouldn't as I don't want to die. I'm not really the kind of person who likes to be told what to do and I ignored the negative things they were saying which caused more problems, they didn't like it. I can hear words coming from water and from traffic and everything really it's like an energy in my head it gives me bad headaches. Sometimes I feel like something is pushing me.
things got that bad and I had started walking out in front of cars because I believed my body and mind was being taken over (mind control) and the only way I could stop it was by destroying my body.
this is when I got took to a&e there I was diagnosed with phychosis and put on respiridone and diazepam and sent me home under the home treatment team who came to see me everyday.
Then they stopped coming and I was just left.
I've spoke to my Drs and they have been great but think I should be under the mental health team so are writing to them but from my experience this takes months it took months for the Drs to write to the hospital because my meds wasn't working and I don't get to see the psychiatrist. They don't give you any info or anything just meds then leave you. thank god for this forum and the Internet in general.
In the last few months a woman from my Drs has referred my to a centre where they do self esteem groups and art therapy and I found a voices group in my area but because of the corona virus these places have now closed until further notice which rightly so but it doesn't help many with mental health problems who already feel isolated like I do
I can't get my head round what's happening to me tbh I'm finding it hard to stay in reality I've lost interest in the things I used to do and like. friends and family just don't understand they say it's just my own voice but it's not they have a different accent to me and are both male and female old and young.
Because I feel things it makes me think it's spirits and the voices say they are spirits but they have also said they are witches Jesus and others and at first I believed them but then Jesus started telling me to F off so I didn't believe this was Jesus at all and now don't believe the others even when they sound sincere. Non of this makes sense to me tbh and I fell stuck in my head trying to figure it out it's taken over my life and I just want it back
Thanks for this forum and the people on it x
things got that bad and I had started walking out in front of cars because I believed my body and mind was being taken over (mind control) and the only way I could stop it was by destroying my body.
this is when I got took to a&e there I was diagnosed with phychosis and put on respiridone and diazepam and sent me home under the home treatment team who came to see me everyday.
Then they stopped coming and I was just left.
I've spoke to my Drs and they have been great but think I should be under the mental health team so are writing to them but from my experience this takes months it took months for the Drs to write to the hospital because my meds wasn't working and I don't get to see the psychiatrist. They don't give you any info or anything just meds then leave you. thank god for this forum and the Internet in general.
In the last few months a woman from my Drs has referred my to a centre where they do self esteem groups and art therapy and I found a voices group in my area but because of the corona virus these places have now closed until further notice which rightly so but it doesn't help many with mental health problems who already feel isolated like I do
I can't get my head round what's happening to me tbh I'm finding it hard to stay in reality I've lost interest in the things I used to do and like. friends and family just don't understand they say it's just my own voice but it's not they have a different accent to me and are both male and female old and young.
Because I feel things it makes me think it's spirits and the voices say they are spirits but they have also said they are witches Jesus and others and at first I believed them but then Jesus started telling me to F off so I didn't believe this was Jesus at all and now don't believe the others even when they sound sincere. Non of this makes sense to me tbh and I fell stuck in my head trying to figure it out it's taken over my life and I just want it back
Thanks for this forum and the people on it x