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deepermeaning
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- Dec 27, 2008
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Hi, i am new to this forum. i have done a google serch in order to try and find any support forums.
Just days before Xmas my partner broke up with me, i was and am devastated. We werent together that long but i love him and he told me he loved me, in fact he did all the chasing etc.
He told me Xmas eve that he needed to get his head sorted for the sake of his kids and that in a few weeks he hoped, if i was willing that we could give it another go.
Last night he called to tell me he was getting back with his ex for the sake of his kids. i couldnt breathe, threw up etc.
Deep down i know this could never work, even if he were to call me now and say he has made a mistake.
I have taken the weekend off work to try and give myself some emotional recovery time.
The thing is i feel as if i am having some sort of breakdown. We were supposed to be moving in together in a couple of weeks and i have given up my flat. Everything just seems too much to cope with.
I dont even think it only has to do with this. it seems like this was the trigger to something more underlying. i have had loads of change in the last couple of years, finishing uni, moving cities, moving flats 3 times, changing jobs etc.
This was my chance of stability and i unfortunately put my all into it.
I feel so numb but every couple of hours i break down.
I am normally such a nice person but i am having nasty thoughts of others.
I feel i no longer want to be in a world where decent people constantly get messed over. Last night i looked for pills in my flat, i seriously just wanted it all to go away, and in a way i still do. There was not enough of anything though.
Sorry it is so long, but i hope someone can offer me some sort of way in which i can make it stop.
Just days before Xmas my partner broke up with me, i was and am devastated. We werent together that long but i love him and he told me he loved me, in fact he did all the chasing etc.
He told me Xmas eve that he needed to get his head sorted for the sake of his kids and that in a few weeks he hoped, if i was willing that we could give it another go.
Last night he called to tell me he was getting back with his ex for the sake of his kids. i couldnt breathe, threw up etc.
Deep down i know this could never work, even if he were to call me now and say he has made a mistake.
I have taken the weekend off work to try and give myself some emotional recovery time.
The thing is i feel as if i am having some sort of breakdown. We were supposed to be moving in together in a couple of weeks and i have given up my flat. Everything just seems too much to cope with.
I dont even think it only has to do with this. it seems like this was the trigger to something more underlying. i have had loads of change in the last couple of years, finishing uni, moving cities, moving flats 3 times, changing jobs etc.
This was my chance of stability and i unfortunately put my all into it.
I feel so numb but every couple of hours i break down.
I am normally such a nice person but i am having nasty thoughts of others.
I feel i no longer want to be in a world where decent people constantly get messed over. Last night i looked for pills in my flat, i seriously just wanted it all to go away, and in a way i still do. There was not enough of anything though.
Sorry it is so long, but i hope someone can offer me some sort of way in which i can make it stop.
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