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Hi, im new to all this. Basically I'm suffer with depression and anxiety. Also I'm no stranger to selfharm. In a nut shell my heads a mess! I'm here to hopefully gain some knowledge and reassure others, including myself that your not on your own.
 
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Welcome to the forum

I also suffer from depression anxiety self harming and much more soo I'm on the same boat as you and can relate,
That's the brilliant thing about the forum like minded people :)
 
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:welcome: @Imp66 to the forum and we know to well what your going through, I used to self harm but neuro specialists got meds under better control which helped that but regarding anxiety and depression they're my worst enemies in life.

If you don't mind me asking are you seeing a specialist or on any meds to help :hug:
 
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Hello and welcome! I have Bipolar, which means I also suffer from both anxiety and depression.
:welcome: @Imp66 to the forum and we know to well what your going through, I used to self harm but neuro specialists got meds under better control which helped that but regarding anxiety and depression they're my worst enemies in life.

If you don't mind me asking are you seeing a specialist or on any meds to help :hug:
No meds, they are not for me. I'm having counselling for other reasons. Self harm is only surface scaring, Recently resumed after years by a bad situation. Head noise in my worse enemy.
 
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No meds, they are not for me. I'm having counselling for other reasons. Self harm is only surface scaring, Recently resumed after years by a bad situation. Head noise in my worse enemy.
Well everyone to their own I say in life if that's the path you choose :) councilling is good in some aspects as I did it for 3yrs solid weekly and covered many aspects in my life, one was to help my temper but that never worked. I've got surface scaring also, when you say head noise in what aspect?
 
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I started off with cbt couple years back, not so much for depression but for social anxiety. Didnt have much effect first time round as wasn't really doing it for me. I've only been with this new counseller a few weeks, and she's made me see things from different angles. The head noise I refer to is other people trying to Tell me what i'm feeling, and thinking when in reality I'm the only one who can know that. Yet they will try to convince me otherwise.
 
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I started off with cbt couple years back, not so much for depression but for social anxiety. Didnt have much effect first time round as wasn't really doing it for me. I've only been with this new counseller a few weeks, and she's made me see things from different angles. The head noise I refer to is other people trying to Tell me what i'm feeling, and thinking when in reality I'm the only one who can know that. Yet they will try to convince me otherwise.
Not all places can help you, you do have to be with the right people to make it work..i used to have the mental health team involved with me knocking me up all hours as I was on 24hr watch so annoying.
See already from the counsellor your seeing different ways already (y) You seem to be having what I did earlier in life and the only way I can explain it is how I was having it although it does sound weird..the one side of my brain was hearing a voice saying do this or that and the other side of my brain was trying to make me look at it in a better way but that bad side always took the leading role...is this how your feeling?
 
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Mine is more so from being someone's emotional punchbag. That's the only way I can describe it. I've got the blame for everything my partner has been going thru, to the point i started to believe I was the cause of all his pain and life failings. So one half of my brain is telling me ive caused all this whilst the other half can see clearly that I haven't. Having the blame thrown at u constantly, eventually break you down.
 
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Mine is more so from being someone's emotional punchbag. That's the only way I can describe it. I've got the blame for everything my partner has been going thru, to the point i started to believe I was the cause of all his pain and life failings. So one half of my brain is telling me ive caused all this whilst the other half can see clearly that I haven't. Having the blame thrown at u constantly, eventually break you down.
I was emotionally and abused by my first hubby and he sent me nuts in the end with my head and I did go violent I can't afford to be pushed and I kept thinking it was me.

Your minds working in the same manner as I mentioned about but in thought wise instead, it's hard I know as I've been there but look to the positive and gaining your own self respect and think i'm nothing like what was said :hug:
 
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. The head noise I refer to is other people trying to Tell me what i'm feeling, and thinking when in reality I'm the only one who can know that. Yet they will try to convince me otherwise.
I like how you say that -- you are the only one who can know what you are thinking and feeling. It's good that you know it! Been there and done that with people telling me who I am, what I think, what I should think, who I should be.

I too have what you call 'head noise'. I call it 'the screaming in my head' -- it's just flashbacks and memories of people yelling or threatening to harm me.
 
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