- Feb 10, 2021
- United States
Hello, everyone. Like the title says, I never thought I’d be someone who needed to talk about my feelings because I’ve always considered myself to be in control of my emotions. I’m a 21 year old female, but despite being young I’ve had a few health issues come up that have made it hard to get a grip lately. I have problems with my heart that my doctors haven’t figured out yet, and the whole process of doing tests and waiting for results has really taken a toll. Sometimes I feel like my heart is going to stop at any second, and I’m not sure if it’s from my heart issues or from my newfound anxiety. I’m in my last semester of university, but I’m finding it very hard to concentrate on anything but my heart beating in my chest. I often lie awake at night half hoping I’ll wake up the next morning and half hoping I won’t so that I don’t have to feel this way anymore. I’m just so scared the doctors will tell me there’s something seriously wrong and I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle it. The anxiety is killing me, and I can’t stop having these thoughts even though I know it probably only makes my heart problems worse. I don’t know what I’m expecting from posting this other than to get it off my chest. I hope I will at least be able to come back in a few weeks and say it’s gotten a little better. Any advice for getting through this would be much appreciated. Thank you.