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madsheep

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Hey peeps.
I hope you are all fairly well. I usually post up saying about how life is horrid and how things are really difficult and I am loosing grip etc etc... :unsure:

This time its something a bit different. I am about to make the biggest descision of my life and since I dont really have that many friends out there in the real world, I am turning to the one that has supported for for the past year or so (this forum).

Breif History: Struggled through secondary school with mental and physical problems. In and out of hospital quite a lot, but worked hard to get decent grades. Argued my way into 6th form onto maths and physics Alevels. Struggled with the teachers being... well lets say less than supportive. Decided to leave and was told by the head of year that I would never amount to anything or get anywhere in life. Applied to the RAF. Got turned down. Applied to college. Worked hard for two years doing an advanced diploma in engineering and holding down a part time job, as well as looking after my ill mum. Debated my way into one of the top engineering universities in the country.
Then the 'fun' began. I survived half way through my first year on the aeronautical engineering course. Had a break down and got deferred until the following october. Then I lasted until January and ended up in hospital again. I have been in and out ever since and managed to get it deferred until october. So the place I have been fighting for for so long is still open to me. But only for october. If I dont go back this year thats it.

Meanwhile, I finally have a cpn who gives a sh*t, a support worker who truly cares, medication that is starting to work. And have now got to the top of the waiting list for some therapy. But I can only do that if I dont go back!

So I have decided to give up my uni place and take the therapy. Its such a hard descision to make and I am still not sure if its the right thing to do. But there you go.

And just so that I have something to keep my mind occupied I am going to do Psychology and Law at Alevel. I found psychology pretty easy when I started doing it before (in the gap between alevel maths and college) and maybe the combination of psych and law will help me understand this system that I seem to keep getting caught up in!

Thanks for reading peeps. Wish me luck!! (scared face)
 
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dlzoidberg

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You certainly have have battled! For what it's worth, I think you have made the right decision. After the therapy hopefully you will be able to fully focus on what you are doing, without the fear of a relapse.

Good luck!
 
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BORTU

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Hi ms,
Yes, tough decision but I am sure the best thing it to get the therapy. You can possibly finish your degree after? Open uni?
 
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dib4uk

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I echo what others have said it sounds like youve been through a lot and taking the time out for therapy is probably the best thing that you can do for yourself, it will give you time to understand yourself better and the things that have gone wrong n your life.
 
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