What can I do
- Sep 10, 2015
I'm 37 and suffered years of abuse by my father as a young child. He was an alcoholic and emotionally, physically and sexually abused my little sister and I. I suppressed the abuse for nearly 30 years with alcoholism and focusing on my own family and career. However, about four years ago I had a breakdown when the painful memories came back. I lost my career, my house, my family and my sanity. I've tried to kill myself twice in the last two months and almost died this last time. I have supportive friends and family but nobody understands the daily hell in which I live. There aren't enough words for me to help them understand. I've tried so many times and failed that I've given up. Im on meds, but they don't seem to work. I've seen several therapists but complex PTSD seems to be a relatively new condition and I haven't found relief in therapy. I am starting emdr with a new psychologist next week but after four years of hell its hard to have hope. I joined this post with the hope that I could meet some folks who have had similar experiences so I could just share what we've gone through and what life is like for us so I know I'm not alone. I need to know I don't have to fight this battle alone. I can't do it and I'm afraid I won't survive another suicide attempt.