
h_put2021
Well-known member
Hi everyone,
A couple of weeks ago I was in a very bad manic/mixed episode w/ bad disassociation and overdosed 3 times....I was finally committed for a week for psychological help and finally my meds and regimen are working and I'm stable.
But the thing is, I am now finally in a space to sort through everything that happened and picking up the pieces of my life. My memory of the events are pretty limited and I have a lot of things that I just do not remember (which is terrifying).
This weekend I am going back home finally (with someone there to support me), but I am nervous about how being there will make me feel... given all the events that took place. I'm also upset because I caused so much damage to myself and scared my loved ones. I just don't want them to leave me because of this. I've been reassured they aren't and they just want me to be better but I can't shake that fear.
A couple of weeks ago I was in a very bad manic/mixed episode w/ bad disassociation and overdosed 3 times....I was finally committed for a week for psychological help and finally my meds and regimen are working and I'm stable.
But the thing is, I am now finally in a space to sort through everything that happened and picking up the pieces of my life. My memory of the events are pretty limited and I have a lot of things that I just do not remember (which is terrifying).
This weekend I am going back home finally (with someone there to support me), but I am nervous about how being there will make me feel... given all the events that took place. I'm also upset because I caused so much damage to myself and scared my loved ones. I just don't want them to leave me because of this. I've been reassured they aren't and they just want me to be better but I can't shake that fear.