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celticlass
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I have a LONG history of being anxious and/or depressed. This spans 40 years as I am now 63. I used alcohol for around 20 years, eventually concluding my drinking was done at the end alcohollically. During the years 2012 to the end of 2015, I had a good few admissions. Drink figured in these but I was also in major depression and there were concerns about my intention to end my life. At this time there were concerns about bi-polar disorder. My alcohol misuse did not make matters easy. Mixed states were mentioned.
Fast forward to 2020. I have not touched alcohol for 5 years now. There have been changes to my medication here and there, and most recently a mood stabiliser, Topiramate, was removed. This had been used for the alcohol side of things but I was ok in that respect. My other medication is Pregablin 150 mg x 2 daily, Venlafaxine SR 20p mg daily. Other meds for physical illness.
So what's problem? Difficulty sleeping resulting in me being awake till 5 in morning. During the day I would not say I am depressed to any worrying extent. In fact I feel quite cheerful and can be bubbly and excited. My point of worry is that yesterday I was driving somewhere early morning and I 'thought' the radio talk etc was directed at me. A song was played - but to me it was a jumble. Muffled sound. Prior to it being played I thought the DJ was announcing it was for someone with my initials. The song title was given out at the end and I googled it, to find it did exist. The song was Love Will Tear Us Apart if anyone is curious. This links to a personal relationship situation which has been bubbling this year.
Now away back in 1999, in the midst of a major depressive episode which kept me off work for nearly a year, I experienced something similar. I had become fixated on someone at work. I thought I could hear him communicating directly with me (talking.in my head). There was a car radio incident where a song was played (supposedly?!) for me etc and it had been asked for by this worker.
This has got me worried. I don't know whether to call the crisis team tonight to discuss. So I have come here first for advice.
Thank you all.
Fast forward to 2020. I have not touched alcohol for 5 years now. There have been changes to my medication here and there, and most recently a mood stabiliser, Topiramate, was removed. This had been used for the alcohol side of things but I was ok in that respect. My other medication is Pregablin 150 mg x 2 daily, Venlafaxine SR 20p mg daily. Other meds for physical illness.
So what's problem? Difficulty sleeping resulting in me being awake till 5 in morning. During the day I would not say I am depressed to any worrying extent. In fact I feel quite cheerful and can be bubbly and excited. My point of worry is that yesterday I was driving somewhere early morning and I 'thought' the radio talk etc was directed at me. A song was played - but to me it was a jumble. Muffled sound. Prior to it being played I thought the DJ was announcing it was for someone with my initials. The song title was given out at the end and I googled it, to find it did exist. The song was Love Will Tear Us Apart if anyone is curious. This links to a personal relationship situation which has been bubbling this year.
Now away back in 1999, in the midst of a major depressive episode which kept me off work for nearly a year, I experienced something similar. I had become fixated on someone at work. I thought I could hear him communicating directly with me (talking.in my head). There was a car radio incident where a song was played (supposedly?!) for me etc and it had been asked for by this worker.
This has got me worried. I don't know whether to call the crisis team tonight to discuss. So I have come here first for advice.
Thank you all.