I was caught with my pants down then realised it was depot-time
Thank you for supplying the answers in your questions. Never let anyone accuse you of semantic presumption!
(1) I am ageless, like an old, old mountain bled dry by the slow winds. I am renewed and reborn, like water, at one moment glistening in the eye of a hawk and another plunging freefall into a dissipating ocean.
(2) I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in my mother's womb. She complained of strange sensations emanating from the unborn and so the psychiatrists came like pseudo-Magi. They bore gifts of sulpiride, carbamazepine and off-label propanalol. They determined the validity of the diagnosis by careful obeservation of foetal reponses to electro-shock and careful prodding.
(3) Yes, indeed I do. Some schizophrenics from middle and upper class backgrounds are allowed to call themselves bipolar and this makes them much sexier. They are also allowed to express themselves floridly and people find this tremendously charming. Some schizpohrenics are allowed to carry small wood-axes, like Jack Nicholson in the Shining - this gives them especial prestige, especially whenn they are amongst vulnerable groups or at care review meetings. I have also observed that schizophrenics with facial scars attain a very high status, especially if they sometimes drop inopportune anecdotes about thei desire to assassinate famous people; incidentally, amonst this last subgroup I haven't yet determined why but the ones who express a desire to assassinate Simon Cowell tend to always cause the most fear and therefore obtain the most respect. But by and large the schizophrenic with the most respect and social standing amongst the other schhizophrenics if the one that says, "how dare you use that filthy, obscene language of psychiatry against me, against yourselves? Can't you see it is your oppression, you are self-oppresing - and that is obscene?" however, their status doesnt usually last long when it's identified by the brain-specialists that they are disrupting the group and so they end up being re-diagnosed. This means they are then shunned by the schizophrenics as an outsider. You will often see them, hanging around outside the old schizophrenic haunts, sometimes peeping through the windows. By the way to answer the second question in your fourth question I always fited in very well with other schizophrenicss. My days hanging out with Jesus were the best years of my life. He really was the king of us all and I was lucky to get into his group. However, as you may know, the establishment killed him, and theyve gone on killing us, the knowing, the unknowing and affirming and the denying, messiahs all. Which sort of answers you first part in fullness: its our wonderful schizophrenic messiahs thatget the most status and a few of them have even broken out into the mainstteam, like jesus, like philip k dick,..
(4) Mostly through my optical nerves but sometimes in my imagination occasionally in my dreams.
