- Aug 12, 2020
Im quite upset and no one can help me. Im my own worst enemy I don't know the reason I turned out like this. Im helpless to help myself I'm disgusted and in emotional pain. I did something I know I shouldn't have done but I did it anyhow. I don't know if it's me or the anxiety. I must take hold of my life and do what I must but I can't seem to. I have no one I'm alone and afraid. I cant make people understand why I am the way I am I don't know why I'm this way myself. I know I need professional help but I can't do it. I may call my doctor for different meds but I really don't want to get hooked on any more pills. She may suggest therapy, than I have to say what I told her a thousand times, I can't do it I can't get to appts. This is terrible, I wonder what I did to deserve this hell I'm in. I'm sorry for the huge writing, lol.