- Jan 16, 2019
Yes.My problem is due to the bigger picture which is my mother i have to be in a place where i feel strong enough beccause this will still be my issue wether i stop or not theres always that issue thats dragging me back ! I dont want to seem as if im making excuses maybe i am but i just know that i have a huge emotional issue that needs dealing with and unfortunately its out of my controll thank you for uour advice and i need honesty not pitty ehich is what im getting so much appriciated thankuou
It's understandable this has left you with emotional issues, or even life itself has left you with issues, that's natural.
Don't beat yourself up for having emotional issues.
Most people do, some ignore them, some get therapy, some face up to them.
You're in a good position because you want to face up to them and you want to change.
It doesn't sound to me like you're making excuses. It sounds like you're in a place of desperation, which is very human, and okay.
When you said before you hope one day you will be okay, well, I promise you: one day you will be okay. Emotional issues, we're all riding them, right now I'm on a high, but tomorrow I could feel depressed as hell and you might need to support me, that's life. Especially if you have mental health problems.
The issue with you is now how do you take the weight off of you.
Things I'm thinking about:
-your mum can't help you out with the kids, but do you have brothers or sisters that can lend a hand? aunts? friends? anyone? Is dad in the picture? Who can help support you with your kids, in terms of people you trust with your kids?
-does your mum have anyone else in her life who really cares for her and supports her, and can help take the burden off from you? why isn't she getting proper support from social work and medical workers? does she need to go to a rehab clinic?
-get yourself to a support group asap
-get yourself completely clean as soon as possible
I know I'm stating very obvious things here and maybe you need a plan to help you. Which is why i gave you those numbers to ring, those people are trained, and they know solutions which can work. They can help you better than me to support yourself.