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Mystery Illness?

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MininiM

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So, I'm suspected of having BPD after having a talk with a psychologist.
I told my parents, but now my mom (She a nurse on a Mental health unit) believes I don't, because I had a proper and normal childhood. I did.

I mentioned the emigration when I was 12, but that'd be Trauma, ergo PTSD.

The only thing that I know of that'd match PTSD would be my anxiety, but it doesn't explain why I feel the way I feel, nor why I behave, and think, like I do.

Oh well, whatever.
It's just incredibly frustrating
 
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I had the perfect child hood and I am absolute walking train wreck. I think that your upbringing has some but not all to do with it. If it’s any consolation. I’m surprised
that your mother puts so much on upbringing. I think it’s always been one the other or sometimes both. xo, j
 
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MininiM

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I think it's rather a combination of us emigrating and everything that has happened after. It was like a new world. From the city to the countryside, a language I didn't speak, a whole different school system, and I felt incredibly different from my peers.
I never told my parents about anything negative, as to seem like there's nothing wrong.

Now I'm awkward, socially incompetent, no real sense of self and my confidence is basically non-existent. I also can't get shit done by myself. I'll do it sloppy, or I don't do anything. Just waiting for it to pass, and that's when my parents need to step in.
 
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