- May 13, 2021
Hi all I know this isn't as bad as some posts I've read. I constantly feel tired and depressed, I'm self employed and run a small building business. Some days I'm not too bad but it seems to be getting worse, no enthusiasm to do anything but I have the pressure of finding work to keep my employees going and enough to keep me going. I have a 3 kids and a wife who loves to spend money, like every day there's amazon delivery's or something and I'm constantly worried about money and being able to pay bills and my guys. She knows too she has more access than I do to the accounts. It's a constant worry and struggle to find work. If it wasn't for my kids I know I'd be in a terrible way now. The love I got for them is the only thing keeping me going sometimes. I love my wife but I don't know if she still loves me, she shows me no affection and more the opposite on most days yet I've done everything for her. And the more I think about it the worse I get. I'm just not positive about anything anymore, can anyone relate?