
Stephen Geog
Active member
It's not actually diagnosed in the UK, my Doctor said , but I'm a 49 yr old man, 50 in July, and from as young as I can remember, 4-5 yrs old, I was abused physically,sexually, every way till I started to run away at age 14-15, this was back in the 1980-s, I've lived with flashbacks, panic-attacks, nightmares all my life, and just got on with it ,till about 10 yrs ago, when I realised it was that person,who is dead some 20 odd years now who made me like this, I still suffer and cower away if I get a sudden flashback, I think it's called CPTSD, which means C means complex, because it's from a long time back in childhood, I have only started to open up about it every now and then in last 10 years as it was really embarrassing for me to talk about, to say I'm a man, but I was attacked, physically and sexually for 10 yrs minimum, 10 years ago I was attacked by 2 strangers with machetes, which landed me in Hospital for a week, and that just made me feel even worse than I usually was feeling, and I realized I had to talk, or I was going to go crazy, Now I have flashbacks of being attacked with machete aswell, I have tried suicide, a while ago, I injected Heroin, and meant to end my life, I was having a bad few days, but after I injected, I just woke up after 4-6 hours, so that didn't work,and I started to realise it's not my fault, it's that person who is now dead who is the nasty
( Can't say what I want) persons fault, I'm still battling on, no Matter what the doctor gives me, it doesn't stop the horrific memories, torture, sexual abuse, I went through, still suffering now at nearly 50 yrs old, my life ruined by an evil paedophile
( Can't say what I want) persons fault, I'm still battling on, no Matter what the doctor gives me, it doesn't stop the horrific memories, torture, sexual abuse, I went through, still suffering now at nearly 50 yrs old, my life ruined by an evil paedophile